GOING ON 13
June 1, 2008
TRT: 73 min.
TIMECODE VIDEO AUDIO
| 00:01:00;00 | ITVS and LPB logo | Piano Theme, children playing |
| 01:00:12;06 | Sunrise school-front | Piano Theme, children playing |
| 01:00:34;09 | Still Montage—School Morning,
Title: “San Francisco Bay Area”
| Piano Theme, children playing |
| 01:00:40;20 | Children Montage—Getting ready for school, run onto playground, jump rope, jungle gym, B-ball dribbling, coming into class. | Piano Theme, children playing
School bell sounds |
| 01:01:02;09 | Animation Opening Titles:
A film by Kristy Guevara-Flanagan And Dawn D. Valadez
“Going on 13” | Piano Theme, children in school |
| 01:01:26;11
| Ariana intvw in classroom
Title: “Ariana, 9 years old, Oakland” | Ariana: I want to be a basketball player with one kid with a mansion house with a swimming pool in the back and a basketball court.
Ariana: Everybody think girls can’t play sports, they think they, all they do is play with baby dolls, but I’m not the baby doll type, I don’t play with babydolls. |
| 01:01:50;28 | Ariana chanting with girls on play
Ariana in classroom
Ariana cursing out boy by doorway outside | Girls and Ariana: ...that's alright, that's ok, you're gonna pump my gas someday...
Ariana: Being a girl sometimes boys will beat you up and try to mess with you
Ariana:...you shut up....your mama Boy:...my momma?
Ariana:...oh, tell me he didn't talk about my momma |
| 01:02:12;09
| Ariana in classroom
Ariana's mom coming up behind her in classroom, squeezes shoulders
Getting on Bus | Ariana: I can take care of myself and I can, um, and if somebody try to beat me up, I can fight back.
[Piano theme] Ariana [giggling]: Oh mama! Arianna's Mom: Ready to go? Ariana? Yeah.
Ariana [voiceover]: My momma work at C I and they drive buses and they take people that's older where they need to go. |
| 01:02:36;02
| Ariana's mom at the wheel
Ariana on bus
| Ariana's mother [talking into cb]: Ok, I'm assuming that Mr. Pritchard's going to be the first stop. I'm gonna park in front of Mr. Pritchard's house and wait for you.
Ariana [voiceover]: Sometime she'll come and pick me up from school and then we'll go home do my homework and if I finish I can do my puzzle or do something. |
| 01:02:55;12
| Ariana sitting at home | Q. [voiceover]: What kind of relationship do you have with your real father?
[Piano theme ends]
Ariana: A good relationship Q.[off camera]: How often do you see him? Ariana: Um, I don't see him. I don't see him and he don't call me and I don't call him. He don't send me letters and I don't send him letters and that's all. |
| 01:03:26;06 | CU Tree silhouetted by sunrise
Kids walking to school
Classroom Morning Montage | Music, natural sound
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| 01:03:42;14
| Esmeralda intvw in classroom
Title: “Esmeralda 9 years old, Richmond”
Esmeralda with family, making dinner, mother cooking
| Esmeralda: I live with my mom and my dad, my two sisters and a little brother and sometimes my grandma comes over cause we made her a house in the garage.
Esmeralda [voiceover]: My sister is 19, my other sister is 12, I'm 9 and my little brother's 5.
I'm the littlest girl.
[Music begins] |
| 01:04:20;00 | Dad at schools montage
Esmeralda on camera intvw | [Music cont.]
Esmeralda: My dad, he works at these schools.
We have to wake up early with him. We wake up at 3 in the morning and then we take a shower and then at 4 we eat our breakfast and at 5 we come and open the schools with my dad, its dark. |
| 01:04:40;17
| Esmeralda in class
Esmeralda sitting on bed
| Boy: Shut up. Shut up.
Esmeralda [voiceover]: They start saying I'm fat, or jelly roll,
…they say I'm fat head or fatface, fatcheeks and then a boy says he hates Mexicans. |
| 01:05:08;02
| Rosie on playground,
Title-”Rosie, 10 years old, Berkeley”
Girls playing tetherball
Rosie on Playground
Rosie with backpack coming home, opening door
Inside apartment
Rosie and Mom unpacking
| [Theme music begins]
Girls Yelling and Playing: Get it, get it Katlan…its over Rosie….[all]Rosie!
Rosie: My name is Rosie and I'm ten years old and my parents are divorced so I kind of live in two places
Rosie [voiceover]: I spend four days with my mom and four days with my dad, so it’s not completely equal.
And this is the apartment.
Rosie: So should we unload this now?
Mom: Well, you wanna unpack kitchen stuff or you wanna work on your stuff? You pick. It all as to be done.
Rosie: Kitchen stuff.
Mom: OK.
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| 01:06:07;29 | Photos of family
More Rosie and Mom unpacking
| Rosie [voiceover]: I have one brother, he’s 19, he’s in college at Brown University.
My family is very, like, complicated.
Rosie [on camera]: Where should I put it? Mom: Wherever you want.
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| 01:06:30;12 | Rosie on camera intvw
Inside dark apartment, morning.
Inside car
| Rosie: Everyone on my Dad’s side speaks Spanish. Everyone.
[Music ends] Cuz practically everyone’s from Nicaragua.
Dad: Hola. Are you ready? Getting there?
Rosie: Yes, I'm ready.
Dad: Rosita for once is going to be a little late. Well not for once...
Rosie: Oh, Dad, I forgot. I needed to ask for some money.
Dad: Ah hah.
Dad: Here's the money.
Rosie: Thank you.
Dad: Let me give you a little hug. A hug a day.
Rosie: Agh!
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| 01:07:11;19 | Isha playing piano while Dad watches
Title: “Isha, 9 years old, Emeryville”
Isha tying shoelaces, getting ready
Isha and her mother in kitchen
Isha praying
| [piano playing]
Isha: I live with, um, my parents, my grandparents live with us. And my uncle.
Isha [voiceover] :Right now I don’t have a room
Q:: Where do you sleep?
Isha: Right here.
[music starts]
Isha’s mother [subtitles]: One more time, open your mouth wider. Take off your shoes and go over there.
Isha's mother [voiceover]: We trying to be totally Indian at home. We don't speak in English and she does the temple thing every morning and every evening. And we teach them. We are all Indian, our basic roots are Indian and this is an Indian girl. |
| 01:08:07;07 | Airport Tarmac Exterior
Making way to flight in airport
Getting on flight | Isha: I’m going to India by myself. My great grandma is there and my cousins
Isha [subtitles]: What if someone sits on my seat?
Mother[subtitles]: Why would anyone sit on your seat? 45G. What is your seat number?
Isha [subtitles]: 45G.
Mother[subtitles]: What is your seat number?
Isha [subtitles]: 45G.
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| Ariana: Now that is p
Video by Rosie of her neighborhood
| Music
Rosie [voiceover]: Today, my Dad and me are moving to his friend’s house.
And we’re just picking up the last of his stuff from the old house.
This is the kitchen.
This is my Dad. Dad say “hi”.
Rosie’s Dad: Hello.
Rosie’s Dad [subtitled]: How are you doing my girl?
Rosie [voiceover]: Being able to just wander by myself. And not even have to tell anybody, just go. That’s pretty much it. That I’m looking forward to. And being able to work at like a job. I want to get a job. | |
| 01:21:15;05 | Rosie and her mom on living room couch | Rosie’s Mom: You’re just dying to walk to school, huh?
Rosie: Yes!
Rosie’s Mom: But you understand if we find somebody for you to buddy up with I’m going to be fine with it.
Rosie: Yeah.
Rosie’s Mom: The other possibility is that I could walk you part way to school and you could walk the rest of the way by yourself. How would that feel?
Rosie: Part way to school?
Rosie’s Mom: Like, maybe to where the park is? Just straight down the street and then you could walk the rest of the way…no…
Rosie: No.
Rosie’s Mom: You know…it’s just…it’s a really unsafe world particularly for women and girls. I can see its huge to you and I want to be able to say, of course you can…
Rosie: [whispering] Just say it. |
| 01:21:59;01 | Esmeralda’s Valentine’s Day Classroom Montage
Title “Esmeralda”
Esmeralda on yellow bench on playground
Shot of Jermaine, with Title “Jermaine [arrow]”
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Q: Tell me about your boyfriend…Jermaine
Esmeralda: I don’t know. He’s nice. He’s cute. Sometimes he begs me for my juice, mostly I beg him for pencils. That’s all.
Q: Do you think you’re going to go out for a while?
Esmeralda: No.
Q: Do you think you’re going to out in middle school? Why not?
Esmeralda: I don’t know. He’s going to forget me or something. I don’t know.
How old were you when you went, when you decided to date or have a boyfriend?
Q: I think I kissed a boy in seventh grade.
Esmeralda: I wished I did that with Jermaine.
Q: You kissed Jermaine?
Esmeralda: No, I said I wished I did.
Q: Do you feel like you’re ready to kiss a boy? |
| 01:23:16;20 | Esmeralda and her father in living room | Esmeralda: I wanted to ask you a question, Dad.
How do you feel about us being big now? [Giggles.] You wished we were little still?
Esmeralda’s Dad: Well, not really. I feel good. I don’t want you to be little. It’s better that you guys get old, go to school, learn, make up your own life.
My hope is that they get a better life than we have, go to school, get a career and be something. |
| 01:23:56;13 | Isha’s mother dressing her in traditional clothes, braiding her hair
Isha and her mother on camera intvw | [Music cues]
Isha’s Mother [subtitled]: She’s growing so fast. I remember the day she was born. Little. This much.
Even if she likes a good boy, a good Indian boy and she wants to marry him and we think it’s good, I have no problem.
[subtitled] But I have to convince my husband for that. He wants that he select a boy for her. He knows much, much more better than her.
Like my dad did it for me. He find her father. I never saw him. We just got married.
I don’t want that same thing happen to my girl because…generation gap. You can say, time has changed, we are not in India, we are here. So… |
| 01:24:54;24 | Photo of Ariana and her mother and her mother’s fiancé
On camera intvw w/ family
Title: “Ira, Harolina’s fiancé” | Harolina [subtitled]: So what'd you call him?
Ariana [subtitled]: Ira
Ira: I told her she can call me whatever she feel comfortable with and I really never got caught up with what Ariana calls me one way or the other, because I always love her from the time she came up....she's a sweet child.
Ira: How do you feel about being a junior bridesmaid?
Ariana [subtitles]: Its cool, walk down the aisle.
Harolina [offcamera]: What? It’s just cool?
Ariana: It’s just cool.
Harolina: Oh, you wasn't saying that when you had your dress on last weekend.
Ariana: [Laughs]
Harolina: She was just real excited. It was like this, 'mama look'. She had to take it and hold it up and spin around in circles.
Q. [offcamera]: So you guy's are gonna stay here after you get married?
Ira: It depends on economics, everything is around economics. I have children back east, they need their father as well. As much as Ariana needs me, and Harolina does. I just think we should be together closer as a family as one.
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| 01:25:51;23 | Shots of church, wedding prep
Ariana dressed up as Junior Bride
Wedding ceremony, Ariana walks down the aisle and cries
Bride and groom | Natural sounds of wedding prep and church music
Ariana: Camry sit down!
Music
Pastor: I now pronounce them husband and wife. Name of the Father…[applause] |
| 01:27:04;03 | 6th Grade animation: Drawing of maxi pads with books on top, locker shuts “Middle School”
Girls getting their photos taken at school
“Welcome back to school!” on dry erase board
“Believe and Achieve” | Music cues
School sounds |
| 01:27:40;29 | Isha’s new binder CU Isha in her room, cutting tags off new clothes
Title: “Isha, 11 years old” | Isha: [humming]
Isha [talking to self]: What kind of material is this? Let’s find out. Polyester. 100 per cent.
Isha's Father[offscreen, subtitles]: Come and eat
Isha [subtitles]: Papa, they told me I could wear khaki....how long should the skirt be?
Isha's Father[offscreen, subtitles]: Daughter, till down here. Until here.
Isha [talking to self]: I need to see, I need to see. Cool. Good. It needs to be over. Not under. If you wear under they'll send you back home. And you'll have to change. So I don't want to get in trouble first day of school. |
| 01:28:41;08
| Rosie's playing solitaire on computer at home
Title: “Rosie, 11 years old”
Title: “9:00 AM, Monday”
Title: “9:45AM”
| Rosie [singing along with lyrics]:..Everything's changing....
Rosie: Last night I lost my house keys and I couldn't find them this morning, and I didn't want to leave the door unlocked. So I called my mom at work and she wasn't there. And I kept on calling and calling, until I got an answer, then she said that she would call me back and tell me not to go to school or something like that cause school had already started...[phone rings]
[on telephone] Hi.
Q. [offcamera]: What did your mom tell you?
Rosie: That I'm going to school. Really, really late. |
| 01:29:41;20
| Title: “10:10AM”
Inside classroom
Rosie trying to follow along
Title: “Mr. Evans, English Teacher"
| Teacher: Darren?
Darren: Half way up the hill just far enough, just far enough for me to see the water rushing…
[knock at the door]...you don't have to knock. Have a seat anywhere. How about next to Deandra? Or wherever. Deandra will you show where we are. OK. We're getting to the punch line of this essay, okay. So they splash, that was great, lets do it again..'we laughed', everybody see where we are.
Teacher [begins off camera]: Rosie's a quiet student. I'd like to hear her more. And she's been having a hard time I think with things at home that she's let me know by writing me a letter at the beginning of the year. Some challenges at home. And she's missed a lot of school. But considering that, I think she's done amazingly well. |
| 01:30:43;14 | Shots of classroom hallways, lunchroom, students hanging out, Rosie and friend wandering halls.
Rosie and Dana sitting on stoop Title: “Dana’s friend, Rosie” | Rosie [voiceover]: It’s been OK.
It’s bigger. And there’s no recess. And lunch is boring.
Dana: The girl who sits on my table in the other period that I’m at, um, her boyfriend is failing.
Rosie: Already? Wow.
Dana: Yeah, that’s sad isn’t it? First couple weeks of school and they’re already failing.
Q: They must not be showing up at all?
Dana: No, just none of the work is showing up, I’m guessing, cuz he was there.
Q: Do you guys have any stresses?
Rosie: Stresses?
Q: Like things that make you worried or are upsetting?
Rosie: Well when my mom, when she goes to another place and curls up into a ball and practically stops breathing, that makes me kinda worried.
Dana: What?
Rosie: Um, no, it’s part of the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder thing with the childhood flashes. Yeah. But supposedly…they’re doing really good for how long it’s been going on.
I think it’s going to stop pretty soon. |
| 01:32:27;04 | Rosie in backyard with headphones
| [Music cues]
Rosie: It’s like an escape from reality. When I’m listening to music, I’m like a whole another person. I just love it. Its like reality goes away.
Some of the songs are kind of like getting over things. And some of them are about losing things and just like, changes.
Q: What are you escaping from?
Rosie: My life. |
| 01:33:05;24 | Ariana and family playing basketball in street
Title: “Ira's daughter and her family move in after the wedding”
Title: “Ariana, 11 years old”
Truck nearly runs over basketball
Ariana inside bedroom
Ariana and cousin singing, dancing to song
| Ariana: Ouch.
Ariana: Come on
Boy: You just threw it.
Off screen voices: No....Yes!
Ariana: Some girls at my school been talking about changing. Like some people be talking about like they started their, they started their um, thing. And I think that if you started it, you should keep it to yourself. But when they talk about it, I kind of like leave because I don't want to hear that nasty stuff or anything.
But I don't have any changes.
Ariana [singing along with lyrics of song]: I like your little sexy style....baby turn around and let me see that sexy body go bomp bomp bomp… |
| 01:34:29;06 | Isha putting on shoes, riding bike outside with cousin
| Isha and cousin speaking in Hindi
Isha: Be quiet Uday!
Isha [subtitled]: You go in front. Hurry. I said, get in front.
Isha's mother[voiceover]:: She hasn't asked me anything yet. So I didn't tell her anything yet.
Isha's mother [voiceover]: One time she just asked how baby's born. I told her 'when you gonna be 12 years old, then I'll let you know how baby's born.
When I grew up, I never asked those questions to anybody, you know. It’s a different culture. So, you know, I told her, if you have any problems, any kind of problems. Just talk to me, talk to me, talk to your dad, talk to your grandfather or grandmother. These four people. That's it. After these four people, you don't have to talk about nothing to nobody. |
| 01:35:28;11
| Esmeralda moussing her hair in the mirror
Title: “Esmeralda, 11 years old ”
In the living room with father |
Esmeralda's Father [offcamera, subtitles]: Look at me, Boo Boo.
Esmeralda: No.
Esmeralda's Father: Take it. My wife brought me this and she told me when you open it, can I have a piece.
Esmeralda's Father: She likes everything sweet. Huh?
Esmeralda: I guess.
Esmeralda [subtitles]: I can't?
Esmeralda's Father [offcamera, subtitles]: Yes, but you're getting big. You have to watch your figure.
Esmeralda's Father [offcamera, subtitles]: When your 1 or 2 years older, you're going to be mad because nothing fits on you.
Esmeralda: Leave me alone
Esmeralda's Father [offcamera, subtitles]: You have to be on diet boo.
Esmeralda: Leave me alone. I’m mad. |
| 01:36:24;01 | PE Montage
Esmeralda at PE bench | Kids Counting Off
Esmeralda: Today just wasn't my day, I don't feel good. My head hurts and I don't feel like doing nothing. And I didn't do PE yesterday, nor today. But I will do it tomorrow for sure and Friday. Cause I need my grades…
Q. [offcamera subtitles]: Do you ever talk to Jermaine?
Esmeralda [subtitles]: I don't know. I just broke up with him.
Q. [offcamera subtitles]:Why?
Esmeralda [subtitles]: Because.
Q.[offcamera subtitles]: When was that? |
| 01:37:06;17 | Esmeralda’s Family in Kitchen, Meal Time
In bedroom, on bed, playing with sister’s hair | Esmeralda’s Father [spanish, subtitles]: Come and eat son. Come to eat. You too Esme.
Esmeralda [Spanish, subtitles]: Bless us this meal, Lord, and bless this food that we are about to eat so that it sits well in our stomachs.
Esmeralda [voiceover]: He keeps saying I act different.
Esmeralda: I guess I’m changing because I’m going into young, aren’t I? Growing into a young person. I’m supposed to change. I can’t stay little all my life. If I could I would, but I can’t so I shouldn’t. See these are crazy hairstyles of hers [inaudible]. Whassup, y’all, ooo…I don’t know why I changed, I just did. |
| 01:38:18;10
| Title: “8:35 AM”
Rosie's Mother trying to get Rosie to go to school
Title: “Outside Rosie’s Apartment”
Title: “9:10 AM” |
Rosie's Mother: Unlock the door, you have to go to school honey.
Rosie's Mother [behind door]: Are you ready?
Rosie[behind door subtitles]: I said in a couple of minutes.
Rosie's Mother [behind door]: Oh. Okay....You're ready to go, you've been ready to go. You've been up, I've been up.
Rosie: I'm not ready to go.
Rosie's Mother [behind door]: Yes, you are. Come on. Okay, what time is it? Okay, for every minute after now, you're going to lose a minute of television...You have to go to school. Come on. Let's go...Okay for every minute after now, you lose 10 minutes of television...I don't have a freakin watch. Are you saying no? Are you refusing? Ok, if I quit badgering you and walk outside and give you a few minutes will you go? I'm going to walk outside and have a cigarette. Don't lock the door.
Rosie's Mother [outside]: Oh my god. Court is adjourned, I think she just said. |
| 01:39:46;14 | Title: “11:50 AM”
Rosie wheeling backpack to school.
Middle school shots, kids bumping into each other, fighting, goofing off
Isha in math class
Esmeralda in class
Ariana on bed | [Music cues]
Natural school sounds
Teacher:..Let’s see what number we need to divide by…
Esmeralda [subtitles]: I don’t feel like going to school anymore.
Ariana: So I got, mostly I got C’s.The second semester starts on Monday and I decided, like, to get my C’s up to an A, at least get them up to a B. And if I got any F’s on my report card, get them up to, like a C. And then the third semester I work my way up to a A. |
| 01:40:42;06 | Esmeralda’s sister in Quinceñera dress on phone.
At party
Dad puts high heels on Esmeralda’s sister’s feet | Esmeralda [voiceover]: My sister’s having a quinceñera. She’ll be fifteen.
Esmeralda: She’s following in my sister’s footsteps and I’m following in hers.
Music and applause
Voiceover [Spanish, with subtitle]: I have the honor of presenting to you, a young woman, and on this day, she begins a new stage in her life. I am not presenting to us a young woman as a sex symbol. I am presenting a young woman as part of society and who will have struggles just the same as you do.
Esmeralda [voiceover]: Three more years, he’ll let me do all that. |
| 01:41:42;13 | Harolina preparing cake, party for Ariana; Ariana's party
In front of house, cars arriving
Dance Party
Opening presents after party | Party Music
Harolina [subtitles]: We usually have astrojumps and balloons and all that. This is more of a big kid party. I figured middle school might do some different...
Ariana: Um, Leviticus, this is Terrence…
Fernando: I'm Fernando.
Ariana: Raven! Hi Charlandrea!
Ira: Everyone come inside, who's here for the party.
Ariana [subtitles]: You wanna dance with me?
Boy [subtitles]: Start.
Ariana [subtitles]: Go.
Boy [subtitles]: Forget it man, its over.
Ariana: From my mama and pops. I got some underwear...
Harolina: You gonna go try it on.
Off screen voice: Whoo-ee, somebody got big...somebody getting fat.
Harolina [subtitles]: Too small...Turn around. Can I have it? What size is that? |
| 01:43:26;29 | Rosie’s house, posted rules
Rosie collages magazine images
Rosie on Bus Title: “Rosie’s mom has started therapy”
Rosie in classroom
Rosie schoolyard | Rosie: The house rules are: no garbage on the floor, all dishes must be rinsed and stacked in the kitchen sink, dirty clothes must go in the laundry bag immediately, clean clothes must be put away at all times. Monday through Friday, everyone must go to work or school. Everyone in the house must contribute. Me and mom had to come up with rules, because we needed rules. I had no part in these rules. See, it doesn’t make sense, why do you have to be nice to someone when you’re in a really bad mood, you could just not talk to them..
Rosie [voiceover]: I put together pictures of just any famous people in the magazines, so. They’re just…I don’t know they just seem like familiar faces to me.
Rosie [voiceover]: We kind of take care of each other. We just do things for each other.
Rosie [voiceover]: I didn’t get any sleep last night. Because I was working on a history assignment.
History Teacher: What do we have here? Civil War project?
Rosie: With that sheet, I didn’t have the information for it so I didn’t get to do it.
Teacher: Nice. Well put together.
Rosie: …and so even without that other sheet am I still going to pass?
Teacher: Yeah, yes…
Rosie: Or do you need me to do something else?
Teacher: I’d like you to do one more thing.
Rosie: OK
Teacher: One more thing, just as kind of a review of the whole civil war unit.
Rosie [voiceover]: In the entire year, I probably missed about half the year.
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| 01:45:46;17 | Montage, Ariana going to school, girls talking, sign “Days left of school, six days remaining”. In math class
| Music cues
Teacher [off camera]: Whenever you are given the choice of answers and you don’t see an answer that looks exactly like the one that you’re looking for, then you need to find an equivalent fraction.
Ariana: Cool.
Teacher: How do I go about finding that common denominator? Ariana?
Ariana: The denominator’s on the bottom, right?
Teacher: Yeah.
Ariana: Okay, so if it’s a different denominator you’re supposed to see if the other denomination go in the other one.
Teacher: Okay, so I need to find out if one denominator is a factor of the other one. |
| 01:46:29;11 | Ariana playing cards with friends
Alex comes over
Girls singing and dancing | Natural school sounds
Girl: Whatcha all talking about?
Girl: You about to make him over there cry.
Ariana: I don't like him.
Girl: Just do it for awhile and then say, its not you, its me...
Ariana: What do you want?
Alex [subtitles]: I don't like no other girl, I wanna stay with you...
Ariana: Excuse me, excuse me...I guess he like me, but I don't like him.
[singing to radio] |
| 01:47:38;15 | Isha packing, getting ready for trip with family
Isha in India
Title “Rosie gets a summer job” Rosie watering
Ariana playing at pool
Esmeralda sweeping. Title “Esmeralda”
Esmeralda sitting on couch
| Isha [voiceover]: I’m going to India for summer, for like four months.
Singing in Hindi
Rosie [subtitles]: Oh god, I broke it! Oh, god I broke it! I broke the zucchini!
Sounds of play and splashing
Esmeralda: The year went fast. So fast.
Q: What do you like best about yourself?
Esmeralda: Nothing.
Q: What’s the greatest thing about Esmeralda?
Esmeralda: Nothing. I don’t like nothing about myself. I don’t like nothing about myself. I’m ugly. That’s what people say. And I think that’s what makes me think that way. That I’m ugly. But then sometimes I think I’m beautiful and I feel good about myself. But sometimes people just make me think the wrong things, but you know, that happens. [music cues and fades] |
| 01:50:01;09 | Animation Titles “7th Grade”, collage, braids, cell text message
Buttons, Anti Social, F---
Walking out of apartment, Title “Rosie, Twelve Years Old”
Rosie and Mom in the hallway
Rosie walking in the street
Rosie walking down street, talking to camera | [music cues]
Rosie [voiceover]: Ok, this one says “anti-social” and the other one says “fuck you, you fucking fuck”.
My mom bought them for me, for school.
Rosie: Hey mom?
Rosie’s Mom: Yes?
Rosie: My sweater’s on the bed, could you grab it for me?
Rosie’s Mom: Yes.
Rosie [voiceover]: She’s doing better than she was before, with the whole PTSD thing.
Rosie [voiceover]: I was under I guess a lot more stress last year. All the stress and just worrying so much didn’t work together.
Rosie [subtitles]: I’m pretty sure kids have to go to school. I’ll do that thingy, thing with the teacher and the principal and conference thing, and the big problems, and the police and…. |
| 01:51:27;07 | Emery High Montage
Title: “Esmeralda, 12 years old”
More school montage Teacher Introducing herself Title: “Ariana, 12 years old”
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Esmeralda: I feel kind of shy going to a big school with tall people and I'm so short and so I'm really nervous.
Teacher: I am your advocate. If you have questions, if you have problems, you will see that I'm a good person to be there for you, ok? By the time you enter 9th grade we're all going to be like this. We will be like family…
Ariana: No, we won't. I don't have white people in my family. |
| 01:52:18;02 | Isha's House, Hair Conversation
Title “Isha, Twelve Years old”
| Isha's Mother: She didn't put oil in her hair. Now, it’s going to take me a long time to put oil in her hair and you know take all those tangles and make braids. I'll do it, let me finish my tea.
Isha [subtitles]: One braid
Isha's Mother: Two
Isha [subtitles]: Last week it was two.
Isha's Mother: No, you look too mature with one braid, I'm gonna give you two.
Isha: I don't want two.
Isha's Mother: If you do one braid, girls look mature. If you make two, they don't look that mature. I don't want her to look old or mature, I just want her to look like a baby kid. |
| 01:01:09;00
| Teacher struggling to maintain order with Isha's class
| Teacher: I need you to raise hands and show me what the area of this figure would be…I want to see everybody looking this way...
Boy: Shut up...
Boy: Slap you.
Isha: No, you're not.
Boy: If you're Isha's mom, look how bad she's being.
Isha: I'm happy being bad and she even knows it.
Teacher: Isha! |
| 01:53:32;05 | Shots of hallways, lockers
Esmeralda to camera
Science class shots
Esmeralda looking through microscope | Music cues
Esmeralda: Don’t videotape me please!
[subtitles] Didn’t I say not during our break. I said not in out break, only in the class.
Esmeralda: Okay, you can't videotape me like 6th or 7th period because I'm a bad girl in that class, ok...please, no, no I can't be good for one day, no. I can't even be good for thirty minutes or ten minutes...I'm telling you, I don't want you to videotape me…
[Music cues] |
| 01:54:14;02 | Sex ed notes
California State Content Standards
Turning on television in classroom
Isha stands to leave
Reproduction video shows in classroom, Ariana in audience
Movie shows scene of birth, Ariana looks sickened
Teacher in classroom with just girls | Off Camera Teacher’sVoice: Stop talking.
Stop, stop! We’re not doing this!
Teacher: If you stepped out…shhhh!
Those of you who stepped away, who went to Mrs. Crowe’s class when I showed this video, stand up. Stand outside. [Classroom noise]
Boy: They gonna watch a sex movie. You have to have a permission slip.
Isha: um, my mom, my mom said I can’t, so…
Narration: This is the sound made by thousands of active sperm. The sperm’s great activity has but one goal: to find and fertilize the eggs.
But when the fetus is ready to emerge, the uterus begins its powerful contractions. Keep it coming…
Teacher: It’s natural. Are you guys gonna be able to handle it?
Class: Yes!
Teacher: Do you have any questions of me that you just do not feel comfortable asking around the boys?
Girl: When parents have love connections, don’t…don’t that stuff hurt?
Girl: Mr. Rush, I heard that it hurts when you first do it.
Girl: And when that white stuff come out-
Girl: When the sperm come out, don’t it hurt to most men, or boys?
Teacher: When the sperm comes out, does it hurt the male. And the answer is no, ok.
Teacher: Ariana.
Ariana: How do you know when you’re ready to have sex?
Teacher: How do you know…Okay, so when the menstrual cycle of a woman begins, then that’s usually when you can start. But there’s a reason why we have laws saying that you can’t have sex until you’re eighteen, okay, ‘cause you still have a lot of mental development to go. But physically, once your menstrual cycle begins, that’s when you physically can have children. |
| 01:56:51;07 | Ariana at home with Mother and Aunts
Title: “Ariana’s Aunts” | Ariana: They was asking him, does it hurt when the baby come out. And he was like, I can't answer that because I'm not a woman...
Aunt 1: What the hell was he teachin you all then?
Ariana: We just watched this movie and any questions we had, we asked him.
Aunt1: I wanna know, if she's interested in doing it...
Ariana: No. No.
Aunt 1: Are you sure?
Harolina: When you're ready then you come to me and I'll tell you what to do. Even though I really don't want to know, but I'd rather for you to come and tell me then slip up and you be having a baby, and be like me, I was like...my mama said, you pregnant..'no I ain't, I ain't even doing it. 'You pregnant', no I ain't, I ain't doing nothing. And you'll be like aunti Jay, talking about 'I ain't doing nothing.' Nine months pregnant, talking about how she ain't doing nothing...but you don't do it till you ready to.
Aunt 2: Don't do it cause everyone else is doing it...cause everybody is not doing it...
Aunt 1: Even if they say they're doing it, cause I used to say I wasn't doing it and I was never doing it... |
| 01:57:51;19 | Rosie and Mom at home | Rosie’s Mom [offcamera subtitles]: Any other major life questions?
Rosie: Do you think kids should go to college, like earlier?
Rosie’s Mom: I think it depends on the kid. There are some kids that are just bored and they’re ready to go and I think that’s cool too.
Rosie: I think I could go to college right now.
Rosie’s Mom: Oh, I think you could do. If you seriously wanted to do that, you would just have to talk to your counselor. Nothing’s as hellish as junior high
Rosie: Really?
Rosie’s Mom: Really.
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| 01:58:19;24 | Rosie at home | Q: So what’s going on with your dad?
Rosie: Nothing’s really happening right now with us. It’s just, you know, we’re just not seeing each other, we’re not talking to each other. That’s all that’s happening right now. I have more of a mind of my own than he’d like I think. I think he wishes that I thought he was always right, and that I didn’t have my own opinion and pretty much that I wouldn’t state my own opinion when it wasn’t something that he agreed with. So I think that had a lot to do with things.
Q: How does your mom contrast with your dad?
Rosie: Like she wants me to be independent and my dad just wants me to be that little kid again.
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| 01:59:17;16 | Montage fast frame hallway
Computer Room
Chat screens
Title: “chat (chat) v. To participate in a real-time exchange of remarks with people over a computer network.” | [music cues and fades]
Esmeralda: Ms. Farley can I go on the internet now? Yes? Ok? Why ten minutes…I don’twant to go.
Isha [voice over]: One of my friends showed me how to chat.
Like, like 20 or 25 people will be chatting in groups. I was Ghetto Girl, I was Chocolate. I used Cutie Pie...and then I said, ok, I'll only do it today and that's it. Then I did it again and again, but then I thought, it’s not right, its wrong.
Q.: Do you think you're going to do it again?
Isha: [laughs] I don't know. |
| 02:00:47;10
| Shots of Ariana’s neighborhood
Title: “Ariana's stepdad, Ira is in St. Louis looking for work”
Harolina and Ariana at home talking to Ira on phone; Ariana playing with baby |
Harolina: Say hi grandpa...DJ talk to grandpa...grandpa talking to you...
Ira [phone]: You don't call me, like you say you going to, why you ain't calling your grandpa
Ariana [on phone]: s'up. Cleaning up...
Ariana [voiceover]: My mom had got married and her husband Ira, he wanted to go back to his home town because that's where all his family is...
Ariana [on phone]:..B's and Cs...B, I didn't say no D...
Ariana [voiceover cont.]:...and so we were gonna move out there, but he didn't want us to go out there and him not have no job and no house for us to live in...
Harolina: You said you was finished...you are not finished, that corner over there is a mess!
Harolina [voiceover]: My sister-in-law and her kids lived here because she got put out of her place, and nowhere else to go, no family but us...and then me being who I am, I didn't just put them out...
Harolina [to Ariana]: Why you didn't put warm water...
Ariana: I did!
Q. [ subtitles]: Are you going to have kids of your own?
Harolina [subtitles]: Kids? You talking to me or her? You not going to have no kids...
Ariana: mm-mmm.
Harolina [subtitles]: Oh, you gonna have at least one!
Q. [offcamera subtitles]: Don't you love kids?
Ariana [subtitles]: Mm hmm...but I don't want to have a kid
Q.[offcamera subtitles]: Why?
Ariana [shrugs]: |
| 02:02:20;21 | Rosie walking to bookstore | Rosie [voiceover]: I just don't hang out with people or even really try to socialize.
At my peak, I was reading like at least one and a half books a day. It was really crazy...
Rosie: Amelia Atwater Rhodes. Very good poetry.
Cold as winter Strong as stone She face the darkness All alone A silver goddess A reflection A mirage A recollection As she looks down upon a shattered youth A shattered mirror shows a shattered truth
That’s her best poem. |
| 02:03:17;02 | Isha packing
Refrigerator and suburbs Inside shots of new house
Title, “Hercules, California”
Interior of House and Family settling in
Isha walking around outside
| Isha: I'm moving...I am moving. That's cool. I'm moving to Hercules and I'm going to go to school there, and I'm going to make new friends. But I'm going to keep in touch with my old friends. Yeah.
Q: How long have you lived here for?
Isha: Since I came to America.
Isha's Mother: I'm in a good neighborhood now. I'm in a good place. There it was good; but always risk over there. People hanging on this corner, that corner. Those things aren't going to happen here. Good environment for the kids, that's a priority, that's why we moved.
Q.: What do you like about your new neighborhood?
Isha: It looks like a neighborhood. |
| 02:04:34;15 | Photo of Ariana, Ira and Harolina
Title, “Ira’s family has moved out. Ira is still in Saint Louis and they’re not sure if he’s coming back”
Ariana and mom in living room
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Q. [offcamera]: So how is it now that its just the two of you?
Harolina: Peaceful.
Ariana: I like it, its quiet in here.
Harolina: It’s alright. We lived by ourselves before.
Ariana: We had lived by ourselves before.
Harolina:..in this same house...
Ariana: And then I'm getting a dog. A little dog, about this tall and I'm going to keep it forever.
Harolina: You going to keep it forever? Well, nothing lasts forever sweetie.
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| 02:05:21;05 | Honor Roll Assembly | Ariana: Cum laude
Girl: Mag-na
Ariana: Cum laude, cum laude....this is an honor roll event. This is an academic rally. The white shirts mean 3.0.
Q. [offcamera]: Do you feel like you worked hard for that?
Ariana: Yes. I really did!
Ariana [voiceover subtitles]: Last year I wasn’t really tripping about my grades. I got a C. Now I get made when I get a C.
Announcer: I'm going to give the certificates to our honor roll students...
Ariana: Let's go...
Announcer:...Shakia Moore...Ariana Harris...
Ariana [voiceover subtitles]: I read these books about to be a lawyer, from 7th and up and your grades really count. And I really want to be a lawyer. [Ariana sings]
Announcer: Keep up the good work, two weeks left. I wanna see everybody in the first couple rows next year. Thank you everybody. |
| 02:06:32;07
| Animation card, “13”
Esmeralda’s birthday with family
Esmeralda on beach | [Music cues]
Esmeralda: It’s my birthday. Don't be hating, ok? [singing]...but it wasn't good enough for you, so I asked God, God send me an angel...
Esmeralda's Brother [subtitles]: I don't want to sing Happy Birthday.
Esmeralda [subtitles]: I'm gonna make a wish for each candle. Better turn out the lights.
Mom counts in Spanish
[Music continues to sounds of water]
Esmeralda: Do you like that, how the water sounds. I love that noise. I feel good about myself, even though people talk about me, that I’m fat, and I’m ugly. I don’t care what they think, I like the way I am. I mean it’s me. I don’t care. You have to have attitude. You can't stay a little girl forever and not have an attitude. It just comes. You have to have to, you just have to have to. |
| 02:08:24;16 | Isha carving her name into tree
| [Music cues]
Isha: I can’t. OK, “I” isn’t perfect, it needs to be perfect.
Q. [offcamera]: So you're turning 13.
Isha: Yay. No…Yeah, I am.
God, my hair. I don't like it. I want to color it black. Totally black. And get some red streaks up in it. That's what I want and I want black nail polish. Am I turning into a goth? Am I? |
| 02:09:13;27 | Ariana and friend outside on track | Ariana: You don’t want to be pregnant in high school or in college. You don’t want to be pregnant knowing nothing.
So I think you should wait, to um, to get- you could have…have sex, but then, use like protection or something, and then, but then don’t do sex everyday cuz you know how to do it. You should just do it like, once a week…
Ariana’s |Friend: I want to get pregnant when I’m in med school.
Ariana: Why?
Ariana’s Friend: I don’t know. Because I want to be a pediatrician so I know how to raise my child.
Ariana: I’m gonna be a lawyer, so, hey, maybe I’ll see you up there one day. |
| 02:09:54;22 | Title: “Mr Doher, History teacher” Rosie and teacher in classroom
Rosie and friend spinning inside class
Rosie spinning outside | Mr. Doher: What’s the word? It’s this tough exterior to shield her warm tender interior. Her sweet side…that no one has ever been able to find. But we think it’s in there.
Rosie [subtitles]: Blind faith. Gotta have it.
Mr. Doher: Yeah, that’s true.
Rosie: There were desks before, they were that way.
Mr. Doher: We can give you room. So we can move stuff, so you can spin all you want. Crashing and ridiculous laughing and…faster, faster.
[Music cues]
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| 02:10:38;29 | Photos of Rosie with title:
Photos of Ariana with title: “In addition to high school, Ariana is taking public speaking classes at a community college. She works part-time at the Oakland Parks and Recreation Department. Her step-dad, Ira, has moved back in with her and her mom.”
Photos of Isha with title: “Isha continues to travel to India every summer where her family is now building a house. Their big dream is for her to become a nurse. She’s currently working at school as a library assistant and taking dance production.”
Photos of Esmeralda with title: “Esmeralda recently celebrated her dream Quinceñeara – complete with a Stretch Hummer limo. Her plan is to become a real estate agent. In the meantime, she is waiting for the day when her dad will let her drive the family car.”
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| 02:11:37;09 | Credits | [Music] |