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<i>GENTLE MUSIC</i>
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So do you think
these education reforms...
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... will make women...
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... equal and free?
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If not today,
then tomorrow
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If not tomorrow,
then another day
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That's how life
has always seemed
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Since the dawning of memory
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<i>WISTFUL MUSIC</i>
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<i>TRAFFIC NOISES</i>
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<i>MAN'S VOICE</i>
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<i>WISTFUL MUSIC</i>
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<i>BIKE ENGINE CHUGS,
</i> CHILDREN SHOUTING
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<i>HAPPY VOICES CHATTING</i>
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<i>TALKING AND CLINK
</i> OF CUTLERY
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How are you?
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I'm well
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- Really?
<i>- No</i>
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It's the ulcers
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It's been too long
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She's come to boss us around
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<i>Food's ready</i>
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That was the only window
to the outside world
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<i>- What could you see?</i>
- Nothing
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Just a bit of street
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You could only see a little bit.
That's all
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<i>I don't know how
</i>you survived
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I couldn't have survived that
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I was saying we could only see
out from that one window
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If the door-bell rang we had
to run inside: "Men are coming"
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<i>Let's eat</i>
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Come on
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Fatima, are you
leaving tomorrow?
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<i>- Is she eating?</i>
- She won't touch her food
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Won't you stay while I'm here?
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<i>I'm only here for a week</i>
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It's all derelict now
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<i>POIGNANT STRING MUSIC</i>
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<i>FOOD FRYING</i>
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When I think of
Mother and Father
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They were never happy
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Father would shout,
Mother would be scared
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That's all I remember
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I don't remember
them being close
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Mother was always scared
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Are you eating, Mum?
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Aren't you eating?
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Do you want a spoon?
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<i>- Do you always eat late?</i>
- Yes
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What's that?
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<i>- What?</i>
- That
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Taste it
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<i>GIGGLING</i>
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It's egg
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Don't you want it?
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That's enough
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<i>DOOR CREAKS IN THE WIND</i>
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<i>LAUGHTER</i>
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<i>- Who's that?</i>
- It's the wind
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<i>When you were
</i> pregnant with me
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<i>Did Father say
</i> you had to have a boy?
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He did
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Did he threaten to divorce you?
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<i>I had to have a boy</i>
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"We'll keep it if it's a boy,
otherwise you'll be sterilised"
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<i>Why did you give me away?</i>
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Her father already
had two children
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No, three
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<i>He married me
</i> when their mother died
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I had a girl.
He wanted a boy
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He told me to leave the baby
with my mother in
another village
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I left her, she grew up there
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<i>When she was 5, she came
</i> back to us for school
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I suppose I was
too young to care
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I hoped my parents
would look after her
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<i>How old were you
</i>when Salma was born?
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Me?
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I was 17
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17 years old
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<i>When I saw my father
</i> ill-treating my mother
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<i>I'd say: "I'd divorce him,
</i> if I were you"
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<i>"What can I do?" She'd say.
</i>Her sister would say the
same
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<i>They both suffered</i>
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<i>Both wanted to escape</i>
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<i>But there was no way out</i>
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<i>MELANCHOLIC MUSIC</i>
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She's a good girl
but she's too clever
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She gets angry all the time
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Nearly all the time
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She condemns us.
She gets furious
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<i>BIRD CHIRPING,
</i> CHILD SHOUTING
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<i>CHILDREN LAUGHING</i>
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Back from school?
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Are you late?
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<i>VEHICLE HORN</i>
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The village has
set rules for women
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They've made me who I am,
or who I was
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Like all the women here
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Most girls start periods at 13
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That's when the world outside
becomes strictly forbidden
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After puberty,
you lose the outside world
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One by one,
my school friends got locked up
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That's how it is
for Muslim girls
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<i>RINGS DOORBELL</i>
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Little mother
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<i>WOMAN SHOUTS REPLIES</i>
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I remember...
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... when you'd carry me
to the garden
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We'd go to the river,
you'd carry me
in a basket on your head
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I loved her so much
I wanted to carry her
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I wasn't strong enough
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<i>How did you feel when
</i> her parents took her back?
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It was unbearable,
I really suffered
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I longed to see her
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I'd stay in bed for a week
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<i>Mother worried
</i> about my periods
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They gave you medicine
to bring it on
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<i>They gave me
</i> lots of potions
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How old were you?
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I was 14,
my periods were late
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They said "Drink this"
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But I'd already
started my period
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I was just hiding it
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I knew they'd lock me up
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We both had a white dress.
My period went all over it
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I'd get water from the well
and scrub it off
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when mother was asleep
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I'd wring it out
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And wear it.
I did that for a week
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I didn't know
about sanitary towels
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Blood kept pouring out
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They forced me
to take medicine
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I couldn't bear it any more,
so I told them it had come
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They locked me up straight away.
I cried
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I tried to see over the walls
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I panicked,
"Will they keep me here?"
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They married me here
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There was nothing there
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Just corridors and hallways
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I remember it all
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You're only 8 years older
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She has a good memory
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Everybody admired her.
She's so clever
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When she was little,
she was disobedient
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... they'd make her say
"Allah" and "Father"
again and again
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<i>SOFT MUSIC</i>
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My sister and I loved
going to the cinema
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Suddenly, she wasn't
allowed to go any more.
She had to stay indoors
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There was a good film on.
She said "I can't go
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You've only got a year left.
Then you'll be stuck inside
with me"
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I was sad for her
and scared for myself
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I was overwhlmed with dread,
thinking "I'm next"
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<i>SOUND OF BIRDS
</i>FROM OUTSIDE
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I had no dreams any more
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No desires, my life
had been decided for me
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It was terrible
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I wrote a poem
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"Living through the years
but saying goodbye to life"
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All you have is time
but no life. It's crazy
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The life you could have had,
has gone forever
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<i>SNIFFS</i>
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This window was made to shut
women off from the outside world
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Why's it here?
You can't see anything
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<i>FAINT SOUNDS OF
</i> CHILDREN SHOUTING
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Only one person could sit here
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My sister Nadjma would say
"I want to sit there"
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We'd fight all the time
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<i>CHILD SHOUTING</i>
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I hated being stuck inside
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That's why I fought with
Salma over the window
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But I'd let her sit
there in the end
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"It's your turn now"
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- I didn't have breakfast
- Have that
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Peel them for tomorrow's meal
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Fetch some water, Dilima
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We left school at 14
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I wanted to stay
but my parents wouldn't let me
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The village wouldn't allow it
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Muslim girls don't study,
they don't go out
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We were kept in the house
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My periods started when I was 14
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I was 14 when I got married
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He was a relative
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They'd already chosen a groom
for my sister and me
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They were just
waiting for our periods
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3 months after my first period,
they married me off
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They kept me
at my father's house
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Because I was so young
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I had my first child
when I was 15
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It was a boy
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I was a bit naughty
when I was little
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I wouldn't do what I was told
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I was too strong minded
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My father didn't like that
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He wanted me to leave school
even before puberty
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So when I got my period
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They snatched everything away
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I begged them
to let me go to school
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They refused,
it's so painful
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I regret it every single day
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<i>SLOW PENSIVE MUSIC</i>
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I don't know why I loved reading
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00:19:24,400 --> 00:19:30,200
People in the village
aren't interested in books
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00:19:35,560 --> 00:19:39,280
Only a few people
read newspapers
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00:19:39,280 --> 00:19:42,600
I never saw a woman read
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00:19:42,800 --> 00:19:45,880
I loved reading
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00:19:47,120 --> 00:19:49,120
<i>VEHICLE BEEPS HORN</i>
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00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:57,520
Our groceries came
wrapped in newspaper
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00:19:59,440 --> 00:20:04,080
It meant I had lots
of different things to read
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00:20:07,200 --> 00:20:09,840
My mother usually
threw the paper away
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00:20:09,840 --> 00:20:12,560
I'd take it
out of the bin
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00:20:12,800 --> 00:20:15,720
I was so desperate to read
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00:20:20,480 --> 00:20:23,960
<i>VOICES AND CLATTERING</i>
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00:20:25,000 --> 00:20:27,040
<i>Why are they hiding?</i>
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00:20:28,160 --> 00:20:30,240
<i>Have they reached
</i> puberty?
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00:20:30,240 --> 00:20:32,280
<i>LAUGHTER</i>
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00:20:32,280 --> 00:20:34,320
Why are you standing outside?
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00:20:34,720 --> 00:20:38,200
Are both of you married?
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00:20:38,480 --> 00:20:41,080
- They're sisters
- OK
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00:20:41,720 --> 00:20:44,600
How old were you
when you married?
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How old were you?
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00:20:47,160 --> 00:20:49,200
- How old?
- 17
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- When was the marriage?
- A year ago
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The wedding was 4 months ago
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- And you?
- I'm 20
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Someone's watching us up there
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00:21:04,360 --> 00:21:06,560
And over there
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00:21:07,080 --> 00:21:09,080
And there
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<i>How did you feel...</i>
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00:21:12,280 --> 00:21:15,800
<i>... when Salma
</i> was locked up?
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00:21:17,400 --> 00:21:22,600
She was so brave
I'd cry with her
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00:21:22,840 --> 00:21:25,520
Because I raised her
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I couldn't eat
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00:21:30,240 --> 00:21:32,960
I couldn't sleep
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00:21:33,600 --> 00:21:37,520
So many battles,
she won them all
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- Couldn't you do anything?
<i>- What could I do?</i>
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I didn't have any money
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I could only make her eat
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00:21:51,880 --> 00:21:55,320
<i>She stuck her finger
</i> in the electric socket
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She didn't talk to me
for ages after that
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00:22:04,720 --> 00:22:07,840
When I asked her why
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00:22:08,720 --> 00:22:11,560
She's go like this
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00:22:13,960 --> 00:22:16,520
It was such a struggle
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00:22:18,320 --> 00:22:21,440
She cried all the time
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00:22:23,840 --> 00:22:25,840
Hunched up like this
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She wouldn't eat
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I couldn't bear it,
I raised her with such love
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00:22:32,360 --> 00:22:34,360
They didn't raise her
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00:22:34,480 --> 00:22:36,480
I did
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00:22:38,480 --> 00:22:40,720
<i>She fought against it all</i>
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00:22:42,360 --> 00:22:45,320
With such courage
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<i>NATURAL WILDLIFE SOUNDS,
</i> DISTANT SINGING
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00:23:10,640 --> 00:23:14,560
I want Fatima to have
what I couldn't have
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00:23:14,840 --> 00:23:22,280
I want her to study
and be free
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00:23:24,360 --> 00:23:27,920
<i>To have the education
</i>I never had
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00:23:27,920 --> 00:23:32,920
She has the dreams
I once had
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00:23:34,400 --> 00:23:36,520
Fatima is my life
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00:23:43,920 --> 00:23:47,280
Eat it.
Take it like medicine
259
00:23:47,480 --> 00:23:50,280
I don't want it
260
00:23:50,280 --> 00:23:53,800
You must eat
261
00:23:53,800 --> 00:23:55,800
- Allah
- Don't say that
262
00:23:55,960 --> 00:23:58,000
I don't care
263
00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:00,000
You'll pay for it
264
00:24:00,120 --> 00:24:03,920
- Let her choose
- She won't eat anything
265
00:24:05,320 --> 00:24:08,120
- Eat nicely
- I don't want to
266
00:24:08,120 --> 00:24:10,760
- Why not?
- Don't want it
267
00:24:10,760 --> 00:24:12,800
Just a bit
268
00:24:12,800 --> 00:24:14,840
I've had some
269
00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:16,840
<i>Try it</i>
270
00:24:20,400 --> 00:24:24,560
- More rice?
- It's fine
271
00:24:35,600 --> 00:24:39,280
All my sadness and anger...
272
00:24:39,280 --> 00:24:41,320
... when you look
at womens' lives
273
00:24:41,960 --> 00:24:46,080
You can see all their pain
274
00:24:46,760 --> 00:24:49,720
They just don't seem aware of it
275
00:24:50,640 --> 00:24:58,640
<i>MOURNFUL MUSIC</i>
276
00:25:07,600 --> 00:25:11,960
<i>SPLASHING WATER</i>
277
00:25:13,280 --> 00:25:16,040
I was locked inside,
I'd go to my mum and cry
278
00:25:17,520 --> 00:25:21,560
She'd say
"You can't go out
279
00:25:21,560 --> 00:25:24,920
You can't study
because that means going out
280
00:25:25,680 --> 00:25:29,200
Allah has written
this fate on our heads"
281
00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:31,560
That's how she saw life
282
00:25:34,360 --> 00:25:36,600
The anger was boiling inside me
283
00:25:36,600 --> 00:25:41,960
That's when
I started writing poetry
284
00:25:44,280 --> 00:25:46,320
I had no friends
285
00:25:46,480 --> 00:25:52,920
No one to share my feelings with
286
00:25:59,280 --> 00:26:03,560
I was haunted
by the thought:"Is this it?
287
00:26:04,800 --> 00:26:07,760
I have to live
within these walls
288
00:26:07,760 --> 00:26:09,760
Like my mother and sister
289
00:26:10,280 --> 00:26:13,400
Marry, have kids and die"
290
00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:28,240
<i>TALKING</i>
291
00:26:38,480 --> 00:26:42,040
I'm always talking
about you
292
00:26:42,320 --> 00:26:45,000
You got such good grades
293
00:26:45,200 --> 00:26:48,400
You're an inspiration
to other Muslim girls
294
00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:53,200
Keep these
and finish your course
295
00:26:53,360 --> 00:26:56,320
Don't waste this hard work
296
00:26:56,680 --> 00:27:00,680
I thought you'd do
something with your life
297
00:27:01,320 --> 00:27:03,640
Even my husband was saying
298
00:27:03,640 --> 00:27:06,920
"If she's finished school,
she could have done so well
299
00:27:06,920 --> 00:27:09,680
But they're marrying her off
in such a hurry"
300
00:27:09,840 --> 00:27:12,760
<i>We had so many
</i> marriage offers
301
00:27:12,760 --> 00:27:15,480
I'm not surprised
302
00:27:15,680 --> 00:27:17,920
<i>So many</i>
303
00:27:17,920 --> 00:27:20,280
The village wouldn't listen
304
00:27:20,640 --> 00:27:23,080
<i>Are you sad you
</i>left school?
305
00:27:23,360 --> 00:27:25,600
There was nothing I could do
306
00:27:26,040 --> 00:27:28,480
<i>- Which college was it?</i>
- Jamal
307
00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:32,160
I wanted to graduate
308
00:27:35,040 --> 00:27:38,600
<i>Enough excuses,
</i> her time had come
309
00:27:40,000 --> 00:27:43,160
We put it off for too long
310
00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:47,200
We couldn't keep saying:
"She's studying"
311
00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:58,840
<i>SLOW, MOURNFUL MUSIC</i>
312
00:28:10,120 --> 00:28:13,400
My marriage was fixed
when I was 13
313
00:28:17,920 --> 00:28:20,880
"This is your husband"
314
00:28:21,640 --> 00:28:27,320
I thought:
"I won't let this happen to me"
315
00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:33,760
One night,
Mother woke us up
316
00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:37,520
She had a
terrible pain in her chest
317
00:28:38,040 --> 00:28:43,760
We called the doctor.
He said it was stress
318
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:49,760
He said it was life-threatening
319
00:28:50,360 --> 00:28:53,680
3 days later,
I agreed to the marriage
320
00:28:54,160 --> 00:28:56,480
Afterwards, I realised
it was a trick
321
00:28:57,120 --> 00:29:01,240
She'd got the doctor to lie
322
00:29:03,800 --> 00:29:07,000
I didn't speak to my
mother for two years
323
00:29:07,640 --> 00:29:10,680
She was the one
who deceived me
324
00:29:12,600 --> 00:29:16,000
Without her, the marriage
would never have happened
325
00:29:16,480 --> 00:29:22,280
I didn't want to be
trapped into that life
326
00:29:22,400 --> 00:29:25,280
<i>PENSIVE MUSIC</i>
327
00:29:34,600 --> 00:29:42,440
<i>CHATTERING, SOMBRE MUSIC</i>
328
00:30:16,920 --> 00:30:21,160
Is the wedding on the 12th?
329
00:30:21,960 --> 00:30:24,640
I'll be there
330
00:30:25,280 --> 00:30:27,920
Keep studying
331
00:30:31,200 --> 00:30:39,160
<i>SAD STRINGS MUSIC</i>
332
00:30:58,920 --> 00:31:06,920
<i>CHATTERING</i>
333
00:31:12,440 --> 00:31:15,760
The men are coming
334
00:31:26,320 --> 00:31:34,320
<i>TALKING, BIRD CHIRPING</i>
335
00:31:35,960 --> 00:31:39,040
Sit down.
We'll have lunch
336
00:31:44,080 --> 00:31:46,640
I keep saying no rice.
You keep bringing it
337
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:51,080
Sit down
338
00:31:51,240 --> 00:31:54,000
<i>GENERAL DIN</i>
339
00:31:55,600 --> 00:32:01,800
<i>SPEAKING</i>
340
00:32:07,680 --> 00:32:09,680
I was against the marriage
341
00:32:10,520 --> 00:32:14,960
I wanted her to marry someone
from outside the village
342
00:32:15,720 --> 00:32:19,080
I said to mother
"Give her some hope
343
00:32:19,480 --> 00:32:22,760
Let her be happy"
344
00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:27,800
But Mother was
soaked in the village
345
00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:31,080
She gave Salma
to a local man
346
00:32:31,280 --> 00:32:34,800
It only happened because of her
347
00:32:35,440 --> 00:32:40,200
We had to do what
the big people wanted
348
00:32:40,640 --> 00:32:42,880
We had no say
349
00:32:43,560 --> 00:32:47,960
Neither of us agreed to it
350
00:32:47,960 --> 00:32:53,800
You can't go against
the big people
351
00:32:54,080 --> 00:33:00,640
We were afraid of the village.
The talk and the fear
352
00:33:00,760 --> 00:33:04,680
That's how the marriage happened
353
00:33:05,800 --> 00:33:13,760
<i>GENERAL DIN</i>
354
00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:24,160
<i>TRAFFIC AND CROWD NOISE</i>
355
00:33:29,920 --> 00:33:34,640
<i>GENERAL DIN</i>
356
00:33:44,680 --> 00:33:52,000
<i>SORROWFUL MUSIC</i>
357
00:33:54,080 --> 00:33:56,440
The evening breeze blows
towards the bride
358
00:33:56,560 --> 00:33:59,880
As she takes her leave
on her wedding day
359
00:34:00,840 --> 00:34:04,040
Her elder sister pushes her
face inside the purdah
360
00:34:04,560 --> 00:34:08,480
And instructs her on making love
Surrounded by
the scent of flowers
361
00:34:09,680 --> 00:34:12,760
She rifles in haste through
pages of heavy books
362
00:34:13,080 --> 00:34:15,800
She herself had not read,
to tell her sister
363
00:34:16,920 --> 00:34:20,680
... which days are best for sex
When she's most likely
to conceive
364
00:34:21,720 --> 00:34:25,040
What things are forbidden
365
00:34:25,800 --> 00:34:29,440
She tells her about
cleaning after sex
366
00:34:36,360 --> 00:34:38,720
That entire night
367
00:34:39,040 --> 00:34:42,800
The new bride disentangles
her sister's advice
368
00:34:43,640 --> 00:34:49,360
And lays it out carefully
on the marriage bed
369
00:34:55,800 --> 00:34:57,840
This is good
370
00:34:57,840 --> 00:35:00,600
What?
So much to read
371
00:35:00,800 --> 00:35:03,160
There are 2 writers here...
372
00:35:03,160 --> 00:35:05,560
<i>- Who?</i>
- Here
373
00:35:06,240 --> 00:35:08,240
Look
374
00:35:09,240 --> 00:35:17,200
<i>MOBILE PHONE RINGING</i>
375
00:35:18,400 --> 00:35:20,400
Greetings, Sir
376
00:35:31,480 --> 00:35:34,240
Come to the office
377
00:35:35,680 --> 00:35:41,120
<i>SOUND OF FRYING FOOD</i>
378
00:35:42,440 --> 00:35:44,840
<i>TALKING</i>
379
00:35:45,160 --> 00:35:51,600
<i>WATER GUSHING FROM TAP</i>
380
00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:59,080
Sit down
381
00:36:06,040 --> 00:36:09,200
<i>- Marriages every day</i>
- 11 of them
382
00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:12,920
- Have you been to the doctor?
<i>- I've given up</i>
383
00:36:13,280 --> 00:36:16,560
<i>Get tested, they'll
</i> tell you what's wrong
384
00:36:16,680 --> 00:36:19,440
<i>I'll tell you who
</i> to see in Tirichi
385
00:36:19,640 --> 00:36:22,920
- Not in Tirichi, Chennai
<i>- Oh, Chennai?</i>
386
00:36:33,880 --> 00:36:37,120
<i>VOICES CHATTERING</i>
387
00:36:38,760 --> 00:36:41,040
- 3 parcels of food here
<i>- What?</i>
388
00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:43,480
3 parcels of food
389
00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:46,040
- What is it?
<i>- White rice</i>
390
00:36:47,000 --> 00:36:49,240
- Plain rice
<i>- Special rice</i>
391
00:36:50,560 --> 00:36:52,560
Get my vest
392
00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:55,000
Put some trousers on
393
00:37:00,600 --> 00:37:03,240
<i>Less pepper</i>
394
00:37:03,400 --> 00:37:05,760
There's hardly any in it
395
00:37:10,520 --> 00:37:12,520
<i>Rashmy</i>
396
00:37:17,520 --> 00:37:19,960
This is Salma's
397
00:37:20,120 --> 00:37:22,120
<i>COCK CROWING</i>
398
00:37:23,520 --> 00:37:25,520
It's got bones in it
399
00:37:25,520 --> 00:37:28,720
Be quiet.
Stop interfering
400
00:37:29,200 --> 00:37:31,920
<i>VOICES</i>
401
00:37:36,680 --> 00:37:44,120
<i>TALKING</i>
402
00:37:51,920 --> 00:37:54,520
Ahmed talks too much
403
00:37:54,720 --> 00:37:56,880
He's a pain
404
00:37:57,320 --> 00:38:00,160
He's so annoying
405
00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:03,600
Always complaining
406
00:38:06,280 --> 00:38:09,840
She's my favourite
daughter-in-law
407
00:38:09,840 --> 00:38:11,840
We're fond of her
408
00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:17,520
She doesn't cause any trouble
409
00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:20,720
She's kind to strangers
410
00:38:20,720 --> 00:38:24,280
She does what I say
411
00:38:24,760 --> 00:38:26,800
Straight away
412
00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:31,880
We don't have any problems
413
00:38:32,440 --> 00:38:34,720
I like her a lot
414
00:38:34,720 --> 00:38:40,080
I like all my daughter-in-law
415
00:38:40,520 --> 00:38:44,360
The problem with her is,
she won't wear the burka
416
00:38:45,480 --> 00:38:48,160
<i>We lived together
</i>for 15 years
417
00:38:48,400 --> 00:38:51,840
My only problem is the burka
418
00:38:52,400 --> 00:38:54,840
She won't cover her head
419
00:38:54,840 --> 00:38:57,640
You read about it in her book
420
00:38:58,040 --> 00:39:00,320
People talk
421
00:39:00,840 --> 00:39:03,720
I don't say anything to her
422
00:39:04,800 --> 00:39:09,640
I tell her father,
her mother and Malik
423
00:39:10,200 --> 00:39:14,840
Malik says "it's nothing
to do with you, Mother"
424
00:39:15,240 --> 00:39:18,480
I have no other
problems with her
425
00:39:31,280 --> 00:39:39,240
<i>PENSIVE MUSIC</i>
426
00:40:17,720 --> 00:40:21,280
I had to hide things from him
I couldn't write
427
00:40:22,480 --> 00:40:28,760
The shouting was unbearable.
He'd get angry and hit me
428
00:40:30,080 --> 00:40:34,920
He'd be lying next to me
429
00:40:34,920 --> 00:40:39,520
I'd be thinking up ways to write
430
00:40:40,000 --> 00:40:42,840
I'd try to remember the words
431
00:40:43,720 --> 00:40:47,480
I'd repeat lines in my head
432
00:40:47,960 --> 00:40:51,360
I'd have forgotten them
by morning
433
00:40:52,640 --> 00:40:56,480
I'd get angry:
"I should've written them down"
434
00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:58,480
I lost so many poems like that
435
00:40:58,720 --> 00:41:03,280
I started keeping a notebook
436
00:41:03,280 --> 00:41:08,240
under my side of the bed
437
00:41:09,360 --> 00:41:12,960
I'd write when he fell asleep
438
00:41:12,960 --> 00:41:17,640
Later the notebook would be gone
439
00:41:17,840 --> 00:41:22,520
He'd find it
and throw it away
440
00:41:23,840 --> 00:41:25,880
After that...
441
00:41:25,880 --> 00:41:29,800
... when I needed to write
442
00:41:30,760 --> 00:41:34,760
The only paper I could find
were bits of the calendar
443
00:41:35,080 --> 00:41:40,400
I'd take a few
of the torn-off bits
444
00:41:41,520 --> 00:41:46,760
I'd go to the toilet
445
00:41:47,320 --> 00:41:49,840
The whole family used it
446
00:41:50,880 --> 00:41:55,840
It was all wet and disgusting
447
00:41:56,840 --> 00:42:01,880
I'd stand in that
horrible toilet
448
00:42:02,960 --> 00:42:05,880
And write down
as much as I could
449
00:42:07,560 --> 00:42:13,920
There was a box in there
450
00:42:14,400 --> 00:42:19,360
Where we kept sanitary towels
451
00:42:20,720 --> 00:42:23,920
I hid a pen in there
452
00:42:24,160 --> 00:42:30,120
Then I'd stuff the notes
into my blouse
453
00:42:30,520 --> 00:42:34,640
I'd hide them
in my dressing table
454
00:42:35,040 --> 00:42:40,560
In here.
I'd cover them with clothes
455
00:42:40,920 --> 00:42:44,520
I thought they'd be safe...
456
00:42:44,520 --> 00:42:49,040
But a few days later,
they'd be gone
457
00:42:49,400 --> 00:42:54,960
So the only safe place
was the cupboard
458
00:42:55,120 --> 00:42:58,760
I'd take the poems
459
00:42:59,240 --> 00:43:05,280
And shove them
under piles of saris
460
00:43:06,680 --> 00:43:12,520
When I'd filled
a notebook with poems...
461
00:43:12,800 --> 00:43:18,720
... Mother would take it
with the laundry
462
00:43:19,280 --> 00:43:21,640
And put it in an envelope
463
00:43:21,640 --> 00:43:25,400
And give it to Father to post
464
00:43:26,040 --> 00:43:28,160
That's how we did it
465
00:43:29,480 --> 00:43:33,400
When the poems were published,
no one in Malik's family knew
466
00:43:36,600 --> 00:43:38,600
<i>MAN'S VOICE</i>
467
00:43:41,040 --> 00:43:43,040
Butter for sale
468
00:43:49,160 --> 00:43:51,240
ANIMALS BLEATING
469
00:43:52,720 --> 00:43:56,840
<i>I smuggled her poems out</i>
470
00:43:57,160 --> 00:44:01,760
And brought back letters for her
471
00:44:02,760 --> 00:44:06,600
I'd take things here and there
472
00:44:06,920 --> 00:44:12,240
When she got published,
we had to go to Chennai
473
00:44:12,800 --> 00:44:15,800
What excuse could we use?
474
00:44:15,960 --> 00:44:18,880
We said there was a wedding
475
00:44:19,240 --> 00:44:22,360
And went to the book launch
476
00:44:24,320 --> 00:44:27,160
<i>Why did you help her?</i>
477
00:44:27,160 --> 00:44:33,200
Why should she be stuck inside
like an old lady?
478
00:44:33,200 --> 00:44:36,560
I wanted to get her out
479
00:44:36,560 --> 00:44:43,240
Everyone here gets locked up
once they're married
480
00:44:45,440 --> 00:44:48,640
Once in a while
they can go to their mother's
481
00:44:49,000 --> 00:44:54,840
Secretly, I wanted her
to write poetry
482
00:44:54,840 --> 00:44:57,600
<i>Did you read the poems?</i>
483
00:44:57,600 --> 00:44:59,640
Yes
484
00:45:00,920 --> 00:45:03,400
- Did you really?
<i>- Yes</i>
485
00:45:03,520 --> 00:45:06,360
Of course
486
00:45:08,720 --> 00:45:10,720
<i>I just didn't tell you</i>
487
00:45:46,600 --> 00:45:54,080
Her cousin came with
some poems in a notebook
488
00:45:55,520 --> 00:45:58,760
I don't usually read poetry
489
00:45:59,440 --> 00:46:06,280
But when I read her poems,
I was stunned
490
00:46:07,640 --> 00:46:10,440
I asked her cousin about her
491
00:46:10,720 --> 00:46:15,520
She'd left school at 13,
educated herself
492
00:46:16,000 --> 00:46:22,320
I was so surprised that someone
like her could write so well
493
00:46:23,040 --> 00:46:27,320
I published her poems
494
00:46:27,920 --> 00:46:31,440
There were a lot of
spelling mistakes
495
00:46:31,960 --> 00:46:35,200
She hadn't been to school
496
00:46:36,000 --> 00:46:42,280
Despite all that,
the poems were so good
497
00:46:42,960 --> 00:46:45,800
We'd write to each other
498
00:46:46,200 --> 00:46:51,080
When she was alone
in the house, she'd call me
499
00:46:53,760 --> 00:46:59,240
She was having problems at home
500
00:46:59,880 --> 00:47:07,440
It was painful to hear
how she was being treated
501
00:47:07,760 --> 00:47:11,040
I got upset whenever she told me
502
00:47:11,520 --> 00:47:18,200
But she's such a talented writer
503
00:47:18,320 --> 00:47:21,400
I kept on encouraging her
504
00:47:24,720 --> 00:47:28,600
When I first got to know her
505
00:47:28,920 --> 00:47:33,640
Everything was so new
and difficult for her
506
00:47:34,120 --> 00:47:41,040
Crossing the road,
having a meal out
507
00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:46,680
It was all new for her
508
00:47:46,960 --> 00:47:52,880
She'd never been with
strangers, especially men
509
00:47:53,400 --> 00:47:56,880
I could tell she'd never
crossed a city street
510
00:47:56,880 --> 00:48:01,600
Or been in a restaurant
511
00:48:02,320 --> 00:48:05,560
It was all very sad
512
00:48:06,080 --> 00:48:11,080
<i>SLOW MUSIC</i>
513
00:48:11,520 --> 00:48:17,040
Most nights, he'd pick a fight
514
00:48:17,680 --> 00:48:21,040
He'd tell me to stop writing
515
00:48:21,400 --> 00:48:25,200
I'd go on all night.
He'd keep saying "Don't write"
516
00:48:25,560 --> 00:48:31,520
One day, he bought some kerosene
and threatened to kill himself
517
00:48:34,840 --> 00:48:38,120
Then he bought some acid...
518
00:48:38,120 --> 00:48:44,040
And threatened to
pour it on my face
519
00:48:44,280 --> 00:48:46,640
I was so scared
520
00:48:46,640 --> 00:48:51,280
I'd sleep with Natheem
by my side
521
00:48:51,640 --> 00:48:58,120
And make his face cover mine
522
00:48:58,640 --> 00:49:02,560
Anything could happen
523
00:49:02,560 --> 00:49:07,040
He might even kill me
524
00:49:07,640 --> 00:49:15,440
<i>TRAFFIC NOISE</i>
525
00:49:36,920 --> 00:49:41,960
When I read her poems
they felt so intimate
526
00:49:43,680 --> 00:49:48,040
I was a bachelor then
and enjoying life
527
00:49:48,600 --> 00:49:56,520
She wrote "We sleep together
but we could kill each other"
528
00:49:56,760 --> 00:50:03,240
It's about a husband and wife
and the huge gulf between them
529
00:50:03,240 --> 00:50:06,560
She captured it brilliantly
530
00:50:07,040 --> 00:50:12,080
But who was Salma?
Who was writing those poems?
531
00:50:12,200 --> 00:50:14,600
I wanted to know
532
00:50:15,720 --> 00:50:20,920
I found out
she lived in a village
533
00:50:21,040 --> 00:50:28,600
Her family didn't know she
was writing.
534
00:50:29,200 --> 00:50:31,800
I was fascinated
535
00:50:32,400 --> 00:50:35,480
I wanted to write about her
536
00:50:36,080 --> 00:50:39,640
My magazine sent me
to the village
537
00:50:42,680 --> 00:50:44,720
I waited for ages for her
538
00:50:44,720 --> 00:50:46,760
She came suddenly
539
00:50:46,760 --> 00:50:51,120
She was wearing a burka.
"I'm Salma" she said
540
00:50:52,200 --> 00:50:57,760
I said "Can we talk?"
We talked for a while
541
00:50:58,280 --> 00:51:01,160
I was very drawn to her
542
00:51:03,320 --> 00:51:06,840
There were many
reasons for this
543
00:51:06,840 --> 00:51:10,800
Her poems.
And she's so gorgeous
544
00:51:11,040 --> 00:51:13,520
No point in lying
545
00:51:13,760 --> 00:51:18,640
I was captivated.
I wanted to take a photo
546
00:51:18,640 --> 00:51:21,600
This was a problem
547
00:51:21,600 --> 00:51:25,720
An interview was fine
but a photo
548
00:51:26,200 --> 00:51:29,800
She hesitated.
Looked around
549
00:51:30,160 --> 00:51:34,920
There was only
a little boy there
550
00:51:35,400 --> 00:51:40,040
Suddenly she lifted her veil.
"Quick!" I took 2 photos
551
00:51:40,520 --> 00:51:45,040
She covered herself
and went away
552
00:52:05,680 --> 00:52:13,600
<i>RADIO MUSIC</i>
553
00:52:23,160 --> 00:52:31,080
<i>VOICES TALKING,
</i> FAST MUSIC
554
00:52:48,320 --> 00:52:53,480
My sister hisses at me in anger
What my mother whispers
so tactfully
555
00:52:54,040 --> 00:52:57,280
I'm to blame for everything
that goes wrong in the bedroom
556
00:52:57,760 --> 00:53:00,520
The first words I hear
every night
557
00:53:01,520 --> 00:53:06,360
"Why don't you want to?"
Often they're the last words too
558
00:53:07,080 --> 00:53:10,120
From ten million
shimmering stars,
559
00:53:10,120 --> 00:53:12,520
pointing fingers accuse me
of whoredom
560
00:53:12,960 --> 00:53:16,240
Their words float in
on the trembling night
561
00:53:17,240 --> 00:53:19,800
Unable to feed her young
562
00:53:20,960 --> 00:53:24,560
The child-like sobbing of a cat
seizes my entrails
563
00:53:26,200 --> 00:53:29,080
You may be unhappy too
564
00:53:29,360 --> 00:53:34,600
But time and our history
make it very clear where I stand
565
00:53:35,080 --> 00:53:38,720
To receive a little
love from you,
however dreary
566
00:53:39,200 --> 00:53:41,880
To fulfil my duties as
mother of your child
567
00:53:43,000 --> 00:53:47,800
To have you bring from the world
outside sanitary towels and
contraceptives
568
00:53:48,440 --> 00:53:50,640
And other little favours
569
00:53:51,400 --> 00:53:56,640
To hold some power over you,
if I can
570
00:53:57,040 --> 00:54:01,080
Knowing all this,
my vagina opens
571
00:54:01,760 --> 00:54:05,760
Knowing all this,
my vagina opens
572
00:54:23,440 --> 00:54:30,320
It was difficult for me.
She refused the marriage
573
00:54:30,720 --> 00:54:36,040
It was hard for me
to face my friends
574
00:54:36,520 --> 00:54:41,200
They said:
"You let a girl turn you down?"
575
00:54:41,360 --> 00:54:45,480
Let's kidnap her"
576
00:54:45,920 --> 00:54:48,960
"It'll be fine
once you marry her"
577
00:54:48,960 --> 00:54:51,080
"We can get some mates to do it"
578
00:54:51,080 --> 00:54:55,560
I wondered if it'd work
579
00:54:55,560 --> 00:54:58,000
I thought about it for a while
580
00:54:58,760 --> 00:55:03,400
Truth is,
if anybody else
had married her...
581
00:55:03,600 --> 00:55:05,640
she wouldn't have come this far
582
00:55:05,640 --> 00:55:08,960
He'd have divorced her by now.
For sure
583
00:55:08,960 --> 00:55:15,280
We Muslims
are a bit conservative,
we can't accept her ways
584
00:55:15,280 --> 00:55:20,200
A husband is meant
to provide for his wife
585
00:55:21,000 --> 00:55:28,080
No one else should do that.
I supported her
586
00:55:28,440 --> 00:55:31,680
Salma doesn't appreciate that
587
00:55:31,880 --> 00:55:35,280
I'm not sure what she thinks
588
00:55:35,480 --> 00:55:37,520
If what I did was right or wrong
589
00:55:39,080 --> 00:55:45,960
I'd get angry about
the smallest things
590
00:55:46,720 --> 00:55:50,680
She wouldn't let me
discipline the kids
591
00:55:52,040 --> 00:55:54,040
<i>Are you still angry?</i>
592
00:55:54,040 --> 00:55:56,400
I'm less angry now
593
00:55:56,880 --> 00:56:00,120
It'll come back when I'm older
594
00:56:01,000 --> 00:56:03,800
When I was young
595
00:56:03,800 --> 00:56:10,480
Before I was a teenager
596
00:56:11,080 --> 00:56:13,680
It was jealousy
597
00:56:14,080 --> 00:56:19,560
After that, the anger was
arrogance and pride
598
00:56:20,840 --> 00:56:27,520
When you're married,
you get angry with the kids
599
00:56:27,840 --> 00:56:30,920
There's no end to it
600
00:56:31,160 --> 00:56:36,000
But they say:
"An angry heart is a good heart"
601
00:56:36,360 --> 00:56:40,840
There's goodness and...
602
00:56:44,440 --> 00:56:46,560
I don't know how to put it
603
00:56:49,680 --> 00:56:51,960
There's an animal side
to that anger too
604
00:56:51,960 --> 00:56:54,000
It's always there
605
00:56:54,000 --> 00:57:00,480
Even after a small quarrel we
wouldn't talk for days
606
00:57:01,000 --> 00:57:04,240
About the smallest things...
607
00:57:16,920 --> 00:57:18,920
<i>COUGHING</i>
608
00:57:40,640 --> 00:57:46,800
<i>DISTANT SOUND OF VOICES</i>
609
00:57:49,640 --> 00:57:57,400
<i>DISTANT RADIO MUSIC</i>
610
00:57:58,400 --> 00:58:01,160
<i>Do you still read?</i>
611
00:58:01,160 --> 00:58:06,000
<i>I gave you books
</i> when we were growing up
612
00:58:06,880 --> 00:58:11,720
I'll always remember that
613
00:58:12,000 --> 00:58:16,240
I tell my boys
about the books we used to read
614
00:58:16,600 --> 00:58:24,320
I say "There was a girl
called Salma who
went to live in Chennai..."
615
00:58:24,320 --> 00:58:26,880
Like in a story
616
00:58:27,320 --> 00:58:31,560
- Did you leave school at 17?
<i>- At 15</i>
617
00:58:31,560 --> 00:58:35,160
- You stayed on after puberty?
<i>- For two years</i>
618
00:58:35,160 --> 00:58:38,720
You'd watch me write
619
00:58:38,720 --> 00:58:42,000
<i>What did you hope for?</i>
620
00:58:42,320 --> 00:58:45,920
What did you want to be?
621
00:58:45,920 --> 00:58:49,200
What were your dreams?
622
00:58:49,320 --> 00:58:52,800
When we were friends
people said...
623
00:58:52,800 --> 00:58:57,680
... "don't read,
you'll change
624
00:58:57,680 --> 00:59:03,360
You'll start thinking
there's no Allah"
625
00:59:04,160 --> 00:59:06,200
<i>When I was writing</i>
626
00:59:06,720 --> 00:59:13,240
<i>You were the only one
</i>I could tell
627
00:59:13,240 --> 00:59:17,640
<i>After I got married
</i>I couldn't come here
628
00:59:18,720 --> 00:59:21,160
<i>- My husband stopped me</i>
- Why?
629
00:59:21,160 --> 00:59:24,400
He didn't like me coming here
630
00:59:24,600 --> 00:59:26,920
<i>- "Don't go to Salma's
</i> house" - Why?
631
00:59:27,760 --> 00:59:31,680
They said
you weren't respectable
632
00:59:31,680 --> 00:59:35,280
<i>- My husband said...</i>
- Best not to say...
633
00:59:35,280 --> 00:59:41,560
I would have studied
but I couldn't get any books
634
00:59:41,720 --> 00:59:43,760
I lost you
635
00:59:43,760 --> 00:59:48,080
We couldn't be together any more
636
00:59:50,000 --> 00:59:56,160
We'd sit on the terrace.
I'd tell you everything
637
00:59:56,400 --> 01:00:03,440
Malik's nagging and the fights
638
01:00:03,920 --> 01:00:10,080
I really hoped
they'd let you study
639
01:00:10,720 --> 01:00:17,120
I wanted you to finish school
640
01:00:17,720 --> 01:00:20,000
But they stopped you
641
01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:25,280
<i>At school, you gave me
</i> the courage to speak out
642
01:00:25,760 --> 01:00:29,560
I'm only standing here now
because of those books
643
01:00:29,560 --> 01:00:36,000
I used to be so shy,
like they were big
and I was small
644
01:00:36,440 --> 01:00:44,440
You gave me the courage
to feel I'm as good as anyone
645
01:00:45,200 --> 01:00:50,000
<i>To know I'm not a fool</i>
646
01:00:50,800 --> 01:00:53,400
<i>I got strength from you</i>
647
01:00:53,520 --> 01:00:56,680
I wasn't hiding in a burka...
648
01:00:57,040 --> 01:00:59,120
<i>... or locked up at home</i>
649
01:00:59,640 --> 01:01:03,560
I was free because
I was with you
650
01:01:12,160 --> 01:01:19,360
<i>SLOW PIANO MUSIC</i>
651
01:01:42,240 --> 01:01:47,520
That election still seems
like a dream to me
652
01:01:48,400 --> 01:01:52,200
How did I find
the courage to stand?
653
01:01:52,200 --> 01:01:54,200
They couldn't believe she'd won
654
01:01:54,360 --> 01:02:00,000
"We had the power and
that bitch snatched it from us"
655
01:02:00,280 --> 01:02:04,080
"She's humiliated us,
we've all been shamed"
656
01:02:04,240 --> 01:02:06,320
They went berserk
657
01:02:06,320 --> 01:02:09,560
You hated me writing poems.
You hated me going out
658
01:02:09,560 --> 01:02:13,200
Suddenly you wanted me
to stand in an election
659
01:02:13,200 --> 01:02:15,280
Why did you change?
660
01:02:15,280 --> 01:02:20,280
My father and mother thought it
was a criminal act
661
01:02:20,560 --> 01:02:24,560
Writing poems, reading,
not wearing a burka
662
01:02:24,840 --> 01:02:29,040
They thought I brought dishonour
663
01:02:29,320 --> 01:02:36,920
In the end, I had to
accept her writing.
I realised she was gifted
664
01:02:37,320 --> 01:02:39,320
I realised...
665
01:02:39,560 --> 01:02:42,440
... I had underestimated
her talent
666
01:03:16,320 --> 01:03:18,520
<i>VOICES TALKING</i>
667
01:03:19,120 --> 01:03:23,520
<i>- Have you finished
</i> cooking? - Yes
668
01:03:24,920 --> 01:03:28,840
<i>- Come and eat</i>
- I'm on my way to Ayesha's
669
01:03:33,000 --> 01:03:37,560
<i>- Why did she do it?</i>
- She didn't want to study there
670
01:03:38,000 --> 01:03:40,840
You sent her away,
how old was she?
671
01:03:41,000 --> 01:03:44,080
She was 11 years old
672
01:03:44,760 --> 01:03:47,400
<i>- Did she do it
</i> because of the school?
- Yes
673
01:03:47,400 --> 01:03:49,720
<i>- What happened?</i>
- She set herself on fire
674
01:03:49,720 --> 01:03:52,480
<i>- Where?</i>
-At her cousins'
675
01:03:53,320 --> 01:03:58,320
She doused herself in petrol
which quickened the flame
676
01:03:58,600 --> 01:04:00,680
Did you take her to hospital?
677
01:04:00,680 --> 01:04:04,000
For 3 days.
Her whole body was burnt
678
01:04:04,560 --> 01:04:09,600
She wasn't allowed
to study in the village
once her periods had started
679
01:04:10,200 --> 01:04:12,840
She had to go to Islamic school
680
01:04:13,720 --> 01:04:19,360
Her mother had to send her away,
she had no choice
681
01:04:19,480 --> 01:04:21,560
Her daughter hated it
682
01:04:21,720 --> 01:04:28,840
<i>The school promises work for
</i> the girls. I thought it'd
give her a future
683
01:04:29,360 --> 01:04:35,120
I wanted her
to have some security
684
01:04:35,360 --> 01:04:42,680
You know what it's like here
they won't let us educate girls
685
01:04:43,840 --> 01:04:47,680
It was a terrible end
686
01:04:53,800 --> 01:04:58,520
- Did she ask to come home?
<i>- She cried so much,
</i> I went to get her
687
01:04:58,840 --> 01:05:03,320
She didn't believe
I'd take her home
688
01:05:03,320 --> 01:05:05,360
I thought she was
getting dressed
689
01:05:05,360 --> 01:05:07,480
So it was while you were there?
690
01:05:07,480 --> 01:05:13,160
I was outside the room,
she came out in flames
691
01:05:14,680 --> 01:05:18,120
Her whole body was burnt
692
01:05:18,600 --> 01:05:20,720
There was nothing left
693
01:05:21,680 --> 01:05:25,600
- She was in hospital for 3 days
<i>- Unconscious?</i>
694
01:05:25,920 --> 01:05:28,520
She was conscious
695
01:05:28,720 --> 01:05:31,440
Fully conscious
696
01:05:31,840 --> 01:05:36,680
She asked
the neighbours to come,
they were so fond of her
697
01:05:36,680 --> 01:05:38,720
<i>We all loved her</i>
698
01:05:38,720 --> 01:05:42,920
What's the use? It's all over
699
01:05:43,480 --> 01:05:50,480
The pain is hard to bear.
She was only half-grown
when I lost her
700
01:05:50,720 --> 01:05:54,120
- How long did you study for?
<i>- I never went to school</i>
701
01:05:54,320 --> 01:05:58,360
If you'd studied,
I could get you welfare money
702
01:05:59,800 --> 01:06:02,840
This is my second child
703
01:06:02,960 --> 01:06:06,280
- How old is she?
<i>- She's 11 now</i>
704
01:06:09,320 --> 01:06:11,360
Make sure she stays at school
705
01:06:11,920 --> 01:06:16,280
That's what I wanted
for both of them
but look what happened
706
01:06:35,280 --> 01:06:39,680
Standing for the Welfare Board
President felt very unreal
707
01:06:41,360 --> 01:06:44,360
<i>I wasn't expecting to win</i>
708
01:06:44,360 --> 01:06:47,000
<i>It changed my life</i>
709
01:06:47,680 --> 01:06:52,600
<i>It got me out of the village
</i>to the world outside
710
01:06:53,360 --> 01:07:01,320
<i>POIGNENT STRINGS MUSIC</i>
711
01:08:06,160 --> 01:08:11,320
I stopped a few child marriages
712
01:08:11,320 --> 01:08:14,920
I'd get a call and go
with a police team
713
01:08:15,080 --> 01:08:20,560
You can't intervene
in Muslim marriages
714
01:08:20,760 --> 01:08:23,280
They have separate laws
715
01:08:23,280 --> 01:08:26,600
If you do,
they'll destroy you
716
01:08:28,480 --> 01:08:36,320
<i>CHILDREN SINGING POLITICAL
</i> SONG, MALE ACOMPANIMENT
717
01:09:12,160 --> 01:09:17,360
Madam Salma is receiving this
for her services to the public
718
01:09:23,640 --> 01:09:27,880
<i>BIRDS CHIRPING</i>
719
01:09:51,640 --> 01:09:54,560
We lived in the village
for a long time
720
01:09:55,320 --> 01:10:00,360
When Salma got a job
on the Social Welfare Board
721
01:10:00,640 --> 01:10:04,880
She said "Why don't we
live together in Chennai?"
722
01:10:05,280 --> 01:10:07,760
So I live with her here
723
01:10:08,280 --> 01:10:12,000
Now when I look at Salma...
724
01:10:12,000 --> 01:10:17,320
I realise I've wasted my life
725
01:10:18,040 --> 01:10:21,720
I worry about it a lot
726
01:10:22,280 --> 01:10:27,440
I've frittered my life away
on trivial things
727
01:10:27,800 --> 01:10:34,000
I wish I could be like Salma
but I never finished school
728
01:10:34,640 --> 01:10:37,800
But life goes on I suppose
729
01:10:55,520 --> 01:11:02,320
When you recite the Koran
and pray 5 times a day
730
01:11:02,320 --> 01:11:05,720
It relaxes you
731
01:11:05,920 --> 01:11:11,960
You feel you're getting
closer to Allah
732
01:11:22,080 --> 01:11:30,000
<i>SLOW PIANO MUSIC</i>
733
01:11:40,000 --> 01:11:47,960
<i>SOUND OF WAVES</i>
734
01:11:51,080 --> 01:11:56,200
<i>BELL RINGING</i>
735
01:12:16,960 --> 01:12:18,960
<i>Wasim</i>
736
01:12:18,960 --> 01:12:21,000
<i>Have some more</i>
737
01:12:21,000 --> 01:12:23,040
Leave me alone, Mum
738
01:12:23,040 --> 01:12:25,200
Why are you being like this?
739
01:12:25,200 --> 01:12:28,480
<i>It took her ages to make</i>
740
01:12:29,000 --> 01:12:31,320
<i>ARGUING</i>
741
01:12:32,000 --> 01:12:35,600
Just eat it and say it's good
742
01:12:37,200 --> 01:12:40,120
<i>I don't want compliments,
</i> just eat
743
01:12:40,120 --> 01:12:42,160
It's good, mother
744
01:12:52,360 --> 01:12:55,000
<i>We wanted to
</i> take Nadjma out
745
01:12:55,520 --> 01:13:02,080
<i>- But she wouldn't come
</i> because you're here...
- Right
746
01:13:02,560 --> 01:13:05,720
She said: "My son hates
me going to the cinema"
747
01:13:06,080 --> 01:13:08,800
Why would she go?
748
01:13:08,800 --> 01:13:10,840
Eh Mother?
749
01:13:10,840 --> 01:13:14,440
<i>- So only you can go?</i>
- Act your age
750
01:13:14,560 --> 01:13:18,000
<i>I wasn't allowed to go
</i>when I was your age
751
01:13:18,480 --> 01:13:21,080
<i>My life was over long ago</i>
752
01:13:21,680 --> 01:13:25,520
I'm human too
753
01:13:26,120 --> 01:13:28,680
<i>Why won't you
</i> wear the burka?
754
01:13:29,200 --> 01:13:33,000
Are you angry with me?
755
01:13:33,440 --> 01:13:36,600
Not angry, just disappointed
756
01:13:37,240 --> 01:13:42,080
The burka doesn't enslave you,
it's your identity
757
01:13:42,080 --> 01:13:46,520
- For who?
<i>-It earns you respect</i>
758
01:13:46,960 --> 01:13:49,760
It's like a beard for men
759
01:13:50,200 --> 01:13:52,200
<i>They have to wear it</i>
760
01:13:59,520 --> 01:14:02,840
<i>Everyone knows how
</i> a Muslim should be
761
01:14:02,840 --> 01:14:05,960
<i>You have to live
</i>by the rules
762
01:14:06,440 --> 01:14:09,600
They're set by Allah
763
01:14:09,600 --> 01:14:13,200
The burka doesn't make
our women slaves
764
01:14:13,480 --> 01:14:17,160
No one can say that
765
01:14:17,560 --> 01:14:24,400
The burka protects her beauty,
it doesn't trample on her rights
766
01:14:24,800 --> 01:14:31,080
A Muslim woman who accepts this,
has status in society
767
01:14:31,920 --> 01:14:39,920
People complain about
loss of freedom
768
01:14:41,000 --> 01:14:44,720
<i>But if you don't follow the
</i>rules, everyone condemns you
769
01:14:44,720 --> 01:14:46,760
The burka is your right
770
01:14:46,760 --> 01:14:49,320
You have to wear it
771
01:14:49,320 --> 01:14:51,360
<i>Do you go to the cinema?</i>
772
01:14:51,360 --> 01:14:54,720
<i>I started going recently</i>
773
01:14:54,720 --> 01:15:01,200
<i>I go when I'm bored,
</i> I won't make a habit of it
774
01:15:01,200 --> 01:15:03,240
- Do you watch TV?
- <i>Yes</i>
775
01:15:03,240 --> 01:15:07,560
Don't I get bored?
Can't I go to the cinema?
776
01:15:08,320 --> 01:15:13,120
I'm not forbidding you to go
777
01:15:13,120 --> 01:15:16,400
I just tell her not to
778
01:15:16,400 --> 01:15:19,000
I can't stop her
779
01:15:19,000 --> 01:15:22,720
It's for her own good
780
01:15:22,720 --> 01:15:25,760
- I've stopped going
<i>- She listens to me</i>
781
01:15:25,760 --> 01:15:31,320
I can't tie her up
and say "Don't go"
782
01:15:31,320 --> 01:15:38,240
I tell her
because it's good for her
783
01:15:38,240 --> 01:15:41,120
It may be hard
784
01:15:41,120 --> 01:15:45,680
It's good for her in this life,
Allah will be pleased
in the next one
785
01:15:45,680 --> 01:15:49,520
She listens to her son
786
01:15:50,280 --> 01:15:52,640
The veil hides the body
787
01:15:52,640 --> 01:15:54,680
<i>Why?</i>
788
01:15:54,680 --> 01:15:56,720
Men get aroused
789
01:15:56,720 --> 01:15:58,720
By a body shape
790
01:15:59,040 --> 01:16:01,160
- Right?
- <i>So it's for men?</i>
791
01:16:01,440 --> 01:16:04,960
Allah tests us all
792
01:16:05,440 --> 01:16:11,520
Men get aroused
10 times quicker than women
793
01:16:11,520 --> 01:16:13,960
It's scientifically proven
794
01:16:14,120 --> 01:16:18,600
He's aroused immediately
he sees a woman
795
01:16:18,600 --> 01:16:22,360
It's not the same for women
796
01:16:22,360 --> 01:16:24,720
She responds slower
797
01:16:25,040 --> 01:16:31,200
Scientifically speaking
the burka protects men
798
01:16:31,200 --> 01:16:36,280
So wear it for men and Society
799
01:16:36,280 --> 01:16:38,280
That's all we ask
800
01:16:39,640 --> 01:16:47,200
<i>BIRDS CALLING</i>
801
01:16:47,760 --> 01:16:53,680
<i>TRAFFIC SOUNDS</i>
802
01:16:55,000 --> 01:16:58,320
First of all,
he loves me very much
803
01:16:59,320 --> 01:17:03,160
Wasim really loves me
804
01:17:03,160 --> 01:17:10,280
But Muslims are forbidden
to go to the cinema
805
01:17:10,480 --> 01:17:13,480
That's why he tells
his mother not to go
806
01:17:14,640 --> 01:17:20,360
I am bound by his love
807
01:17:20,520 --> 01:17:25,680
He's always saying:
"Cinema is evil"
808
01:17:26,600 --> 01:17:29,200
I enjoy the world
when he's away
809
01:17:29,200 --> 01:17:32,200
I repress myself
when he's here
810
01:17:32,200 --> 01:17:37,600
When I go out,
the world seems so exciting
811
01:17:38,720 --> 01:17:41,520
It all fascinates me
812
01:17:41,520 --> 01:17:45,960
If I go out with him,
I hide my feelings
813
01:17:46,120 --> 01:17:54,000
I only speak when he talks to me
814
01:17:54,160 --> 01:17:58,520
Wherever I go with him,
I'm the same
815
01:17:59,160 --> 01:18:05,800
If I go out with other people,
I feel so happy
816
01:18:06,200 --> 01:18:08,200
I enjoy myself
817
01:18:08,200 --> 01:18:10,560
<i>Why are you like
</i> that with him?
818
01:18:10,560 --> 01:18:16,360
It pleases him
so I change myself
819
01:18:16,840 --> 01:18:22,160
I change myself for my child
820
01:18:27,760 --> 01:18:29,840
Nadhee
821
01:18:29,840 --> 01:18:31,840
Nadhee
822
01:18:31,960 --> 01:18:33,960
Hurry up
823
01:18:37,640 --> 01:18:40,080
Wake up
824
01:18:41,320 --> 01:18:43,360
Get dressed
825
01:18:47,680 --> 01:18:54,400
<i>SLOW, PENSIVE MUSIC</i>
826
01:18:54,600 --> 01:18:59,840
I never wanted to have boys
827
01:19:03,200 --> 01:19:06,720
I wanted to be a good
mother to a girl
828
01:19:08,880 --> 01:19:14,080
Being in the village
turned them against me
829
01:19:14,800 --> 01:19:17,680
I couldn't bear it
830
01:19:17,960 --> 01:19:20,600
I wanted to take them away
831
01:19:20,600 --> 01:19:23,600
To change the way they think
832
01:19:23,600 --> 01:19:29,440
It's hard to see your kids
turn against you
833
01:19:30,880 --> 01:19:32,920
When I talk to them these days
834
01:19:33,400 --> 01:19:38,160
I sense they disapprove
of their mother
835
01:19:38,920 --> 01:19:41,240
I can't put my finger on it
836
01:19:41,240 --> 01:19:44,080
There's something backward
about the way they think
837
01:19:44,080 --> 01:19:46,800
Deep inside them
838
01:19:47,040 --> 01:19:50,880
<i>PENSIVE MUSIC FADES OUT</i>
839
01:19:51,400 --> 01:19:54,280
<i>Couldn't you sleep
</i>last night?
840
01:19:55,480 --> 01:19:58,280
- I couldn't sleep
- <i>Were you scared?</i>
841
01:19:58,280 --> 01:20:00,280
I just couldn't sleep
842
01:20:01,320 --> 01:20:04,000
<i>Were you thinking
</i> about that girl?
843
01:20:06,000 --> 01:20:08,000
<i>Can I see?</i>
844
01:20:09,240 --> 01:20:12,120
<i>Nadhee, do you know
</i> what marks you'll get?
845
01:20:12,440 --> 01:20:14,440
No idea
846
01:20:15,600 --> 01:20:18,840
What are your plans?
847
01:20:19,000 --> 01:20:23,680
We need to find out about
colleges or you won't get in
848
01:20:24,120 --> 01:20:26,240
No time to lose
849
01:20:29,960 --> 01:20:32,120
<i>Have you read any
</i>of my poems?
850
01:20:32,120 --> 01:20:36,680
I heard you talk about
someone's poem
to Nadjma yesterday
851
01:20:37,400 --> 01:20:39,440
Had you read it?
852
01:20:40,120 --> 01:20:42,240
<i>Have you read mine?</i>
853
01:20:43,080 --> 01:20:45,080
<i>Have you?</i>
854
01:20:46,080 --> 01:20:48,240
Give me that,
I'll read one
855
01:20:48,240 --> 01:20:50,240
Let's see if you get it
856
01:20:50,440 --> 01:20:52,640
Mother's going
to read you a poem
857
01:20:53,280 --> 01:20:56,680
You said you liked
someone else's poem
858
01:20:57,080 --> 01:20:59,480
Let's see about this one?
859
01:21:01,880 --> 01:21:04,160
<i>Give it here</i>
860
01:21:04,560 --> 01:21:06,560
- <i>I'm going to start</i>
- OK
861
01:21:06,720 --> 01:21:08,720
<i>"Breathing"</i>
862
01:21:10,000 --> 01:21:14,200
Everything happens so quickly
863
01:21:14,400 --> 01:21:16,520
Before I can feel it
864
01:21:19,400 --> 01:21:27,360
I keep trying to feel something.
Before it's too late
865
01:21:28,440 --> 01:21:31,600
It all happens in my name
866
01:21:32,680 --> 01:21:35,280
Without me being there
867
01:21:35,800 --> 01:21:40,400
Flowers, people.
The world is
so much bigger than me
868
01:21:43,760 --> 01:21:47,720
Should I carry on breathing
if I'm not really here?
869
01:21:51,080 --> 01:21:54,800
Things happen without
you being there
870
01:21:55,240 --> 01:21:57,240
<i>Like what?</i>
871
01:21:58,080 --> 01:22:00,160
You didn't say...
872
01:22:00,800 --> 01:22:04,560
<i>What sort of things
</i> happen to women?
873
01:22:04,960 --> 01:22:10,600
<i>Not just to me but generally,
</i> without their consent?
874
01:22:10,920 --> 01:22:12,920
- Marriage
- <i>Yes and...?</i>
875
01:22:14,280 --> 01:22:16,320
- Getting locked up
- Yes
876
01:22:16,760 --> 01:22:18,760
- Education?
- Education
877
01:22:18,760 --> 01:22:20,760
And?
878
01:22:22,080 --> 01:22:25,040
- Read it again
- <i>Really?</i>
879
01:22:25,040 --> 01:22:27,080
<i>You're checking Facebook</i>
880
01:22:27,080 --> 01:22:29,120
<i>That's rude</i>
881
01:22:29,120 --> 01:22:31,160
<i>Breathing...</i>
882
01:22:31,160 --> 01:22:34,160
- <i>Want to read?</i>
- You do it
883
01:22:34,600 --> 01:22:42,480
<i>SLOW, POIGNANT MUSIC</i>
884
01:23:44,280 --> 01:23:49,680
Children, Mother-in-law, Father
885
01:23:50,280 --> 01:23:53,920
It's a world of knots and ties
886
01:23:54,200 --> 01:23:56,880
You can't undo them,
it would all unravel
887
01:23:58,400 --> 01:24:00,840
It's all connected
888
01:24:04,040 --> 01:24:07,480
The love I'm looking for...
889
01:24:07,480 --> 01:24:13,120
... I can't find
in the world outside
890
01:24:13,920 --> 01:24:18,440
I may think I don't need it,
but I do
891
01:24:19,240 --> 01:24:21,600
Where could I go...
892
01:24:21,600 --> 01:24:25,840
... if I left all this behind?
893
01:24:26,640 --> 01:24:31,320
I'd end up completely alone
894
01:24:33,320 --> 01:24:41,200
<i>SLOW, QUIET MUSIC</i>
895
01:24:47,840 --> 01:24:50,760
I never thought
she'd be so famous
896
01:24:52,040 --> 01:24:54,880
I did it to make her happy
897
01:24:55,880 --> 01:25:00,480
Allah has blessed her
898
01:25:02,880 --> 01:25:10,880
Mother did so much for me.
I've done nothing for her
899
01:25:15,400 --> 01:25:18,360
I want you to live with me
but you won't come
900
01:25:18,520 --> 01:25:23,080
Your father wouldn't come
and I can't go without him
901
01:25:23,600 --> 01:25:27,240
- <i>He can come too</i>
- He won't leave the village
902
01:25:27,880 --> 01:25:29,880
<i>Why not?</i>
903
01:25:30,080 --> 01:25:35,600
There's no one there for us.
Who would we talk to?
904
01:25:35,920 --> 01:25:40,160
- <i>Grandchildren?...</i>
- He hates doing nothing
905
01:25:40,160 --> 01:25:43,960
He doesn't like
grandchildren either
906
01:25:44,760 --> 01:25:48,720
He likes to go to his shop,
drink tea and talk to people
907
01:25:48,720 --> 01:25:51,040
<i>And enjoy life</i>
908
01:25:52,080 --> 01:25:54,120
<i>You don't come and
</i> see me any more
909
01:25:56,200 --> 01:25:58,840
Not even once
910
01:26:02,880 --> 01:26:07,320
<i>BIRDS SQUAWKING
</i> IN BACKGROUND
911
01:26:10,000 --> 01:26:13,160
Is there a power cut?
912
01:26:13,560 --> 01:26:16,760
- No electricity?
- It's off
913
01:26:19,960 --> 01:26:21,960
- <i>Why are you drinking
</i>tonic water?
914
01:26:21,960 --> 01:26:24,200
- <i>Why are you drinking
</i> tonic?
- It's medicine
915
01:26:24,200 --> 01:26:26,240
- <i>With tonic?</i>
916
01:26:27,320 --> 01:26:29,800
I have to after the operation
917
01:26:29,960 --> 01:26:31,960
<i>Are you making tea?</i>
918
01:26:33,520 --> 01:26:35,520
<i>Come on</i>
919
01:26:36,400 --> 01:26:39,960
- Do you want tea?
- <i>You make
</i> it for a change
920
01:26:40,080 --> 01:26:42,200
OK... Have we got milk?
921
01:26:47,680 --> 01:26:51,040
- Where's the milk?
- <i>It's over there</i>
922
01:26:51,280 --> 01:26:53,360
- Just there
- <i>Not in the fridge</i>
923
01:26:57,000 --> 01:26:59,280
He changed after the cancer
924
01:26:59,280 --> 01:27:01,280
That's right
925
01:27:02,360 --> 01:27:06,960
I wasn't well
926
01:27:07,280 --> 01:27:11,200
- Last year
<i>- No, 10 years ago</i>
927
01:27:11,360 --> 01:27:14,920
When they removed my womb
928
01:27:16,520 --> 01:27:20,920
- <i>Do you wish
</i> he'd changed earlier?
- Before that?
929
01:27:21,120 --> 01:27:23,720
<i>LAUGHING</i>
930
01:27:24,480 --> 01:27:27,480
I could never have changed him
931
01:27:28,320 --> 01:27:32,200
He was like fire
932
01:27:33,920 --> 01:27:36,760
<i>He's mellowed</i>
933
01:27:40,040 --> 01:27:44,520
<i>DISTANT SOUND OF
</i> CHILDREN'S VOICES
934
01:27:45,080 --> 01:27:51,760
<i>AMPLIFIED SOUND OF
</i> PRAYER CHANTING
935
01:28:34,200 --> 01:28:41,200
<i>SLOW, PENSIVE MUSIC</i>
936
01:28:44,680 --> 01:28:46,760
If not today,
then tomorrow
937
01:28:47,440 --> 01:28:49,840
If not tomorrow,
then another day
938
01:28:51,640 --> 01:28:53,960
That's how life
has always seemed
939
01:28:55,600 --> 01:28:57,920
Since the dawning of memory
940
01:29:12,320 --> 01:29:19,320
<i>SLOW, MOURNFUL MUSIC</i>
941
01:29:19,760 --> 01:29:25,240
<i>SOUNDS OF BUSTLE AND TRAFFIC
</i> BENEATH MUSIC